life is full of many hard choices. it's full of things we don't want to do but have to do, and things we want to do but are unable to do. its full of laughter and sadness, full of complexities that baffle the mind and vex the spirit. i think the hard choices are the ones that really affect the course of a life. choices are what determines the outcome of everything, and affects your whole life. i think the ideal thing to do is not to regret the choice once its been made, and just persevere with it. but i sometimes do still regret some of the choices i made, well too late now, and basically all i can do is just to forget and forgive them, and look to the present and the future instead.
its been more than a week since we came back from south africa... i'm slowly settling into school, but still, can't seem to pay attention properly and everything. homework i need to do, but can't seem to get to it properly either. it kind of feels like drama is such an integral part of my life now, that everytime a production is over i'd feel kind of lost. like there's nothing to do, or something like that. i can understand why alumni comes back to visit, not only drama, but for some other ccas too. or maybe its part of the ac spirit thing, experiences are mostly memorable because of the bonds between people. well, i don't really know how to say it. although i don't think i actually belong to a particular group of friends in sch, i still treasure my time in ac, and would miss it a lot when its over. and how soon that'll be... in no time the 'A's are just gonna creep up on me unnoticed, and all the guys will be in NS, and the girls to uni. and we'll all split up. its sad but its true. aren't most things in life anyway. but i guess the sad parts have to be experienced before the truly happy part of life can really be enjoyed.
mmm. kinda sleepy now too... so think i shall sleep soon... which would be about the same time i've been sleeping every night hmm. no wonder not conducive for lessons right hmm.
:11:54 PM: :sugah~plum
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