its astounding, the number of people, or lack thereof who believe that the mosquito bite on my lip is real. i think the total count so far is 2 or 3, as opposed to like, 3435489234 other people who give me strange, sly and disbelieving looks. ohwell. quite funny actually... whoever heard of mosquitoes biting lips. but then again i've been bitten in the strangest places. hmm actually wanted to blog something the other day, but it seems rather out of point when placed next to the mosquito rant. haha. oh and i do believe i've had a rather... memorable and significant easter. like i said, its not enough to get me to embrace a belief that is still rather foreign to me, or to just suddenly decide that i've got faith, but i guess its a step in the right direction. and i agree with the spirit of it, its just that i'm not so sure about the reality of the existence of these people. i guess i'm still waiting for some sort of manifestation in my heart. or something like that. because its true, there's no point in beliving by fact and not with heart.
hmm but what i actually wanted to say was that i was a bit scared. i was actually a bit scared the other day. i just realised how far i've committed myself and how much he means to me. and i don't think i can lose him. i never actually thought i could find anyone who can accept me fully as i am and love me as i am, and i'm still wondering if this is real. its just so wonderful it can't possibly be true. its like an impossible reality has become reality. i hope i'm not becoming too possessive or clingy though, because i seem to be a bit of both. well i guess there's a fine line between love and obsession isn't there. but umm i do believe that i haven't crossed that line yet. hmmm. anyways, went to derrick's birthday party yesterday. was quite nice to catch up with him, and da sam and yun as well, after so long. haha and spent about 3 plus hours in town by myself, have no idea how i managed it. i guess i was occupied in a certain shop... i swear i was there for at least half an hour or dunno how long la. hmm oh and dropped by indochine for a while to collect my very last paycheck and talk to people. ended up sitting down for a while haha and getting served. quite funny.
meow. oh quite strange ran into quite a few people today, and all at the same place too. i don't usually run into people much, but for some reason lots of people were at PS today. oh got some rock climbing competition also haha. ran into andrew and his girlfriend too haha... he's looking good. they're looking good. grin happy for them hahaha. seems like there's quite a lot of people whom i need to catch up with haha. all this separate busy lives thing has caused a lot of drifing i guess. haha i guess we just have to make a bigger effort. hops. oh oh i wanna drive i wanna driiiive! mutter i need the april schedule so i can book book book. hmm oh and i did a 4 day admin job this past week... pretty good haha just typing stuff into the comp, the time passed super quickly sometimes. then i just sit there and eat biscuits and type. haha. quite slack. but i'm how lazy haha have to keep rushing to school from there... if not i would have worked another week hmm. and umm. i haven't done my applications SO i should. concentrate on them. but then i haven't even decided which fac to apply to in nus! agh. i think its fairly annoying that i have no idea what i want to do with my life other than scoop nice round scoops of ice cream, ben & jerry's preferably, be an air stewardess, act or sing or dance and random stuff like that. goodness. i'm such a bum :D
:9:06 PM: :sugah~plum
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