hmm... fell asleep with the lights and my laptop still running again. 3 nights in a row already i think... what's wrong with me. hrmpf. off in search of my missing crystals again... no idea why the same type and colour keeps going missing. maybe coz its white and small. i've lost a 72piece packet and now a 12 piece... bloody hell. and need to leave for school now. grrrrrrr.
:10:59 AM: :sugah~plum
cough.
damn... just had a bout of coughs... wonder if it's coming back all over again. blehs... that won't be good. a whole flurry of emotions today... feel so strange. and just weird. actually payed attention in AS today and took notes... and actually went to the library to read up on biz law. so weird... but i'm trying. maybe its best to be focusing my energies on applying myself anyways. i intend to do well. or at least try to. sigh... up at freaking 3 plus to finish the other 5 pairs of earrings i'm supposed to make. tired. been wanting to blog on mon and tues but been busy... oh well.
cinderella man is a really great show... love it. so inspirational and literary... the representation of the oppressed and suffering lower class by braddock and his rising against the odds is just brilliant. mmmmm. that was a highlight of my week. nice! its always heartening to see a good movie. like how ray was fantastic too! autobiographies are pretty nice... because duh, they only make movies of those great inspirational interesting people huh haha. didn't like the aviator though... that one was just long and kinda blah. heh. yes and had my first ever salsa lesson yesterday... was pretty alright and basic, but i was accused of erm, shaking too much haha. its seriously not intentional -_- i suppose i got bored going front and back and then like when i get bored i wiggle more (?!=p) can't turn very well though sniffs, even though its like not even a turn its like a half-turn... because i don't land perfectly! grrr has to be perfect -_- hmmm and i think i probably need new shoes for dancing soon... my normal heels are falling apart faint.
bahhs... back to the earrings... getting sleepy already. still got biz law stuff to research.... wth. haha. so many projects!!
haha and stay tuned for another hot gay picture of lance, this time in a cute red hoodie sweater for giiirrrrrls... no time to upload now.... soon! =p
:3:35 AM: :sugah~plum
'It is all this i like'? i wonder if its meant for me. if it is, i don't understand it. maybe it isn't i guess... probably not. hmm.
:3:55 PM: :sugah~plum
mmmmm. yummy yummy or luat (ok how the hell dya spell this) and chicken wings.
supposed to have spent the time reading biz law but arrhhh who cares haha i'll read it erh, soon. maybe on the bus tomorrow! hahaha ok good plan... okay... shall try to wake up by 10. 5 hours... not bad! yay haha. damn sad! hair seems to be turning orange =( damn shouldn't have tried to highlight it like blond-ish today haha it just mixed with red and turned like... orange. should've left it red! ohwell haha nevermind, experimenting is fun. it looked fine in the afternoon though sniffs. painted my nails for fun too! bright red too... i think i've gone slightly mad haha.
oh yes watched the brothers grimm with josh today. wahahaha its so cute... fairytale-ishy haha. not really much of a plot or what not la (well okay there was but kinda fairytale-ishy too, but nvm), but was pretty cool... and could see where all the fairytales found their origins. grins. haha ok la felt pretty good to actually go out to town in the afternoon/evening (ie, normal time) and watch a MOVIE which i haven't done in quite a while. the last one i watched was like... Red Eye. which wasn't too bad actually... haha. yeps and treated myself to a scoop of haagen daaz chocolate chocolate chip today mmmmmmmmmmm but ended up like dripping stuff all over my top and foot and floor. arghs haha messy and clumsy as ever. tsskks. have to learn how to be more careful. haha was good to catch up with josh too haha have been kinda busy with school and stuff and haven't been meeting up with ex-classmates oops. and i wanna watch The Myth! didn't even realise that it was already open... for a week already even oops. a bit lost.
ok yawn guess i'll go sleep soon... gotta high speed cram political science and biz law tomorrow. oh crap that means i gotta bring alot of stuff to sch tmr =( haha ookies shall start on biz law now then. oh no and gotta get cracking on MA project too!
:4:40 AM: :sugah~plum
schleeepppy.
haha had a pretty decent 6 hours of sleep... don't know why i'm still quite tired now. yawns. oh oh oh i like my new hair colour... it wasn't quite what i originally wanted but it'll do i guess haha. yay. going to experiment a bit more tomorrow and see what happens to it. hahaha i'm a little mad. oh man i just took a picture of my hair at clara's request... and since i'm still a little mad shall post it here too hahas. think i'm gonna paint my nails red too. hahahahaha. am i psycho or am i psycho? =p
okies... here is picture with trimmed hair with fringe and a slightly red tinge. will post up another one of the finished hair provided it doesn't look too gross. haha and if i can be bothered. so lazy hahas. yes and i guess it would be the proverbial post breaking up haircut huh... but then again i had to cut my hair eventually. couldn't bear to cut off much hair though... i know i look positively awful in short hair haha. but for a moment there i was tempted to get it layered madly and chopped to shoulder length. haha =p
wahahaha. how is it? =p no need liquid paper and red marker already right lance? ;p
ugh ok sleepy byes~
:1:35 AM: :sugah~plum
whoaaaaaaaaaaaa hahahahahahahahahahaahaha.
how can a freaking TWELVE year old dance like THAT?!!?!?!!
i am inspired. (okay i have no idea how long this inspiration will last, wait and see) i wanna stretch everyday until i can do all those spilts and extension thingies! hahaha yah right i wish i will... even that time everyday dance also cannot do =p hrm well i got a bit more flexible in the 2 years... maybe if i take another 2 i will be super flexible!! haha as if... but i can try hrmms. (i think this is a little like the ice skating craze hahas... still haven't got skating boots!! but jurong is so far.....) haha yay. but then there's the problem of fluidity too... that which i am not! boohooooo. and i'm terrible at partner dances and lifts (AAAAAAAAHHHHHahahaha) as all my previous partners and raj can probably attest to. hahaas.
oh wait YAY i found my cool stockings. wahahahahaaha. and feel like colouring my hair... its soo damn boring now haha. think its nice and smooth and long... but boring!! haha. think i shall colour it something interesting... got inspired by some girl with gorgeous hair on the video. hmm. but the problem is everytime i try to colour my hair something, the colour never turns out quite right!! and my hair colour hardly changes too. sniff. maybe it doesn't like dye very much. hmm. haha ohwell we'll see.
wheeeee okay shall give myself.... 1 month to be able to do a what's that spilt called? erm... front spilt? okay whatever... nearly there.... grrrr. okay i'm crazy. damn i think there are mosquitoes here. sniffs. eeps have a whoole lot of earrings to make and biz law to study... what on earth am i doing still slacking?!! aah!
:6:36 PM: :sugah~plum
wheeeeeee just came back from karaoke a while ago.
had my first real drink in a loooooonnnngggg time today. hahahahaahahas. a pina colada! yay its actually really really nice... tastes nothing like alcohol, which is why i like it. hee. aaannd had a sip of heineken (yucks!), kir royale (hmm quite nice), bellini (yummy) and abit of the grosss vodka sprite.... eeeeee. hahahas. and michael bought us all drinks la haha! er i mean, he paid for our drinks! so nice of him! was damn ex lehhh haha so many of us O_O we were saying that tze yi and alvin were probably kicking themselves that they weren't there hahahaas. yaawwwns.... i shld go shower soon, my hair smells of cigarette smoke YUCKS. sian already put like creams and stuff... ohwell =p too bad haha i suddenly feel like i need to shower faint. haha ok maybe i continue after my shower wheeeeee!
wahahahaha i feel soo clean now yay. hair still smells slightly funny though weird... nvm will wash again later. i'm actually really sober! haha :) yes, seriously. haahaa had quite a bit of fun at karaoke just now... me, da and clara went a bit mad at the britney spears songs and ended up hopping on the plush sofa seats and got shooed back down by the management... how embarrassing!! oh no haha. yeah and sang alot of chinese songs and watched michael sing, thai, chinese, cantonese, hokkien and english songs! (!!! O_O) wah crap its 6am already... think i shld go to sleep soon hrms. hair wet though how to sleep! oh and nearly forgot about the CEO talk... was quite alright la. faairly interesting.
hmmm... wonder if i'm happier now or before? i'm unable to tell... though i feel a little more free now. that's good i guess... parents probably more unhappy though hahas since i'm coming home later and later =p but ittssss okay they have to learn how to relax anyways... i'm growing up! hahahaaaa :p
ookies gettting sleeeeppy already!! at least i get to sleep in tmr yays =) ok drifting off already... goodnight or er, morning. yawn.
:6:18 AM: :sugah~plum
yawn.
why am i awake?!!
actually intended to spend the last 2 plus hours finishing up AS... but ended up dancing around my room and trying to figure out if i can spin in heels (i can!! =p but only on my room floor coz its smooth hahas) and basically just prancing around. must have been inspired by those gorgeous, gorgeous, fantabulous dance videos i saw just now swoon. haha unfortunately i always seem to be inspired just for a few hours.... nevermind we'll see how long i'm inspired this time =p then after that got distracted by MSN and solitare showdown! erps.
haha weeelll at least i got a tiny bit more AS done. just about 5% more to go! yay.
okaaaay shall go sleep soon.
:4:33 AM: :sugah~plum
heeheehee.
i feel good today! maybe coz there's no school! saw sze today... much better now... a few inevitable down moments, but otherwise was good! good to see sze nods. and i'm sure the ice cream helped too... TARTUFO my love! ohhhh yesss. i think i felt a lot better after writing the letter too. heh. and decided to upload some photos from my hp cam today heehee, so forgive me if my post is horrendously littered with photos... and if the picture quality is not too good =p
heh... quite random... but nvm =p
a picture from the restaurant we went for dinner after go-karting... how strange! but the only photo i have, since the other one is sooo screwed up -_-
loooook!! so cute right!!
hehe did an extremely ditzy thing in school yesterday... tried for 10 minutes or so, outside the seminar room where MA was held, to open my locker. was quite sure that one of the combinations i tried was the right one, and that the way i was twisting it was right too, but the locker just wouldn't open!! edmund was like staring bemusedly at me trying so hard to open the locker.... and when i FINALLY realised that IT WASN'T MY LOCKER(!!!!!) he was even more amused and followed me to the other side where my real locker was... which i finally managed to open. faint. i can't believe i didn't realise it hahahaa... did that the last week too, except that i gave up trying to open it and didn't even go the other side to see. some scholar i am -_-
speaking of ditzy...
haha da don't kill me k =p
here, proof of my love for you! ;p
haha funny how i'm on the left for all the photos in the first one, and on the right for all on the right. maybe coz the first one was with my cam and the second mostly with hers! weird =p oh another pic of da.... this time, sleeping in class. haha.
that's shan'er's hand next to her... its bad to sleep in class tsktsk. omg can you see the msn screen on her laptop too! :p
hehe LANCE being GAY :p he says he thinks he looks hot here though... does anyone agree =p
oh my gosh... suddenly look like i got alot of photos =p here's some from way back...
char siew bao..... =p
heehee, the cotton candy is bigger than my face! :p
and finally.... the Evo Express :p
(which i managed to drive at snail speed for about 20 seconds without stalling! =p)
okay just ignore the weird car next to it though :p cool huh!
hahas. okkaaayy that's it for photos for now. phew. haha okay gotta go... download widgets (YAY!) and contemplate if i should get the MAC interface (userface haha ;p) coz its prettyyy. but not as user friendly as windows i think. hmm probably won't la... too many people have it too i think. yeps, annnd gotta do AS too. and do more earrings stuffs hahas. i actually have orders ooh =p but abit sian la so many to make faint. i haven't even made those that i designed like, 2 weeks ago haha. no time!
haha okay... shall conclude my terribly long post now and go eat my chips =p part of my rather unhealthy chicken pie + ice cream + now chips too brunch. yumm!
:2:42 PM: :sugah~plum
do. not. cry.
i must stop thinking about it. him. i must resolve to stop thinking about it.
maybe sze is right too, she's not the best person to see right now.
and i should stop asking about him too.
its strange and sad, how someone can suddenly and so quickly fall from everything to nothing. she says he can't be bothered with me at all. and that hurts more than hearing that he's angry with me or upset with me or still missing me a little or anything. because that just means he doesn't care anymore. i guess i have no right to deserve any emotion. okay, fine. fair enough. i just feel stupid for caring then, if i can be so easily forgotten or not bothered about. because i thought we were more than that. i know we both have to move on, and yes i will and i am, but i will still remember us as something which used to be wonderful. i only hope that somewhere in your sub-conscious you will remember this as well. that's enough as long as you're happy. i don't know if you still read this, but... take care. deep down some part of me will always love you and be thankful for all the happy times and for all that you've done for me. but goodbye for now... hope we can be friends someday.
okays. now that's done with.
revelation i guess. decided to be happy today, and it really worked, until like, 6pm. shucks heh. bgs was pretty good today haha spent quite a bit of the class laughing at strange stuff and trying very hard (really!) to understand what on earth was going on in the discussions -_- huh. had 2 cans of coffee wahahaha so was like abit high but for some reason kinda sleepy as well hee. and yay for the sweets too :) hmm also realised (while i was awake and trying to pay attention) that i have no time to think about other things. i have a lot of projects and stuff i have to start doing. like seriously... they're all left hanging. shall try to devote my attention to doing well instead! ha! dean's list haha erps. yah right. but ooookay i will make a token effort. haha. yeppps gotta go study for tmr's MA test soon.
heheh ohh and met john today for the first time in 7 months! yupps woww it's been long. i think he's changed... he's more in touch with his spiritual side now haha. and he's right... love is understanding and patient. i guess ours (me and joel) didn't have enough of both. and we were both weak. sad. oh well. raisin milkshake is very nice though! yummy. and i've said it once and again... i can't embrace God and all that unless i really feel it, understand it and know it. i can see why, but i can't feel why. john understands that i think... but i guess he couldn't wait for me to. met sze after that and we walked around for a bit... and i smuggled her into school (eeps hope the security guards don't read blogs... or at least mine =p) and we sat in the room and hung out for a bit. tried to study... but arghs. not really absorbing haha. nvm... i will try to concentrate later. after dinner... and resting i guess.
letting go...
the cliff is steep, and my fingers are slipping...
left without a handle to grasp...
up here the grass is green, the air is cool...
but i missed a step, so now i fall...
perhaps someone will catch me,
after i hurtle into the great unknown.
i start beginner salsa next tues. yay. at least i get to dance a bit... dancing is great. i'll probably feel happier with dance. cool that john had the most incredulous look when i said i didn't get through the audition for eurhythmix... at least someone thinks i'm pretty good. haha. okkaaay not that i really am very good, but i think i'm passable la. but its true la, 'okay' only isn't good enough for a hardcore performance team. ohwell, no problem here, means more time for me hahaas =) recreational is enough i guess. haha but still don't know if salsa is my thing yet. if it isn't... ponder. maybe i'll take jazz or hip hop haha. or maybe i'll just not dance and rot =p good plan... eat, sleep, and maybe, study (shudder)... turn into a huge blob hahahahaas. tsktsk.
anyways... anyone has season 5 and 6 of sex and the city?!! please lend it to me if you do k!! :)
:7:35 PM: :sugah~plum
I AM SO BORED. SCHOOL SUCKS. MY NOTES ARE GETTING SHORTER AND SHORTER. I FEEL LIKE SLEEPING.
just shoot me now.
(okay don't. just pour cold water on my head or something.)
:4:56 PM: :sugah~plum
i think chiew was right. i guess i do need some time by myself to think.
it still hurts rather badly. was refraining from crying when i read his messages at dinner just now. we used to be great... back before all the trouble started. i reckon it started when all the school stuff started. matriculation, orientation camp, briefings etc. i guess with the onset of all these new things... it couldn't have been the same anyway.
but i suddenly had a moment of deeply missing him today.
guess i'm not totally over it yet. but i really should stop obsessing over all this. and just get on with my life. i have tons of work to do ugh. and other stuff too.
painfully managed to delete 8 messages just now. about 70 more to go. will only allow myself to keep a few in the end. slowly i guess.
one more thing i realised. well two. i'm a bit dependent. and i think that it is like. just that its probably not such a good time now. hopefully later.
... i know that i'll never see him again,
but we shared a moment that will last til the end
you're beautiful, you're beautiful it's true
but it's time to face the truth, i will never be with you ...
:9:48 PM: :sugah~plum
i think... i shouldn't hate myself.
and i won't.
heh had a pretty interesting day today. go-karting! quite tired now... and like discovered that i'm quite lousy at go-karting! hahaaaha crashed into the tire wall thingie like twice at the hairpin turn, and was going so slowly that everyone overtook me haha(except clara ;p). da you should have went! fun fun... and the racing line thing is sooo cool... can actually feel how the kart is turning and the speed and stuff! but ah, will probably take a looong while before i can be proficient at it. haha, nvm, just for fun. but i wouldn't mind going for it again.
wahhh and tze yi was amazing la... all of us were just like gaping when they had the go-kart competition coz he was like, leading alllll the way. so cute haha... yeap and so he won! even though it was his first time go-karting. impressive... nods. hmm quite funny also our "society" ended up sitting at the same table at dinner, and ended up having a damn loud and boisterous time! sooo funny man, michael singing funny chinese songs and thinking peiyan is a nice girl, alvin being gay with michael and wei kiat, and all sorts of funny and weird stuff hahaa. hilarious. heh... a pretty good day all in all, despite having to ponder the meaning of an innominate (?) term, warranties, conditions, and breach of contract.... faint.
mmm... i think i feel better now.
:4:54 AM: :sugah~plum
i hate myself for liking him.
and i hate myself for hurting him.
he never wants to see me again. but despite everything he still wants me to be happy. i think i still need some time before i can properly move on.
and before i can stop hating myself.
he's probably started deleting all my photos and messages from his phone. all those pictures and videos we took together and he took of me. i've only managed to delete a few messages. i'm keeping the photos i think. sweet memories.
but i'm already starting to move on.
which is why i hate myself at the moment.
but i think it'll pass in time. especially with his support.
:3:12 AM: :sugah~plum
Think of me, think of me fondly
When we've said goodbye
Remember me, once in a while
Please promise me you'll try
On that day, that oh so distant day
When you are far away and free
If you ever find a moment
Spare a thought for me
But now it's clear, how it was always clear
That this was never meant to be
If you happen to remember
Stop and think of me
Think of all the things we've shared and seen
Don't think about the way things might have been
Think of me, think of me waking
Silent and resigned
Imagine me, trying too hard
To put you from my mind
We never said our love was evergreen
Or as unchanging as the sea
If you can still remember
Stop and think of me
Flowers fade, the fruits of summer fade
They have their seasons so do we
But please promise me that sometimes
You will think of me
:3:09 PM: :sugah~plum
i cried again today. because i think it really is over. and it hurt to hear how pained he sounded. i didn't really believe it at first... but i think it is. and after thinking about it, being upset and crying and missing him badly for a while my friends brought distractions, and school stuff and studying did too. so i stopped thinking about it for a while. but the call today... somehow i feel bad for starting to move on already. maybe everyone's right, maybe i'll be happier without him. but it was great while it lasted. and i really don't think badly of you. maybe just a little... but i think worse of myself. i need space i guess. but you're right, you have to move on too. i don't want you to be upset over me for long... just not to forget the good times. and i hope one day we can be friends again. i don't know.
it'll take me a while to get over you. but i know my friends are here with me supporting me. so i will be okay. you take care joel. hugs. i hope you find someone more deserving of your love and more suitable for you. i'm glad we brought happiness to each other's lives at least for a brief shining moment.
i guess it really is goodbye.....
time to find myself.
:2:04 AM: :sugah~plum
thanks for all the support you all. i love you all. thanks... shall go sleep soon i guess... think this is the latest i've ever stayed up. feel better than i did last night though... i only hope he's feeling somewhat better too. sigh.
:12:25 PM: :sugah~plum
goodbye.
one and a half years of liking you. nearly 7 months with you. 6 months loving you, still loving you. 9 months of absolute bliss. crying on the bus right now. don't know what to say. its just too painful. i hope it was the right thing to do. i'm going to miss you... already am. but i don't have the strength to message you, to call you, to tell you i still love you and miss you and still want to be with you. because that probably wouldn't be the best thing to do either. we'll just be back where we were. hanging on to something which was stuck in a rut. a vicious cycle. but... the 82 messages from you in my phone. all the movies we watched together and were planning to watch. all the wonderful, beautiful times we spent together. all the times, the many many many times you did something nice for me, to me, to make me happy. it's not fair that we're incompatible. damnit its not. i thought i had changed, become more of a good, decent girl. but maybe i was wrong... because the fun-loving carefree nature seemed to long to spring out and go wild. but i don't know how i will be without you. lonely, i think. empty, maybe. sad, yes. but perhaps its time for me to be brave and accept that some things can't change, and that this is probably the best way to save ourselves from more pain.
in some ways i think you're like my black slippers. you know what i mean. its been with me for so long and i love it so very much. its the most comfortable and one of the nicest pair of slippers i've ever owned, and i wear it nearly everywhere i go and almost everytime i go out. its old now though, the sole is worn, and the colour is rubbing off on my foot. the only difference is, you're not old or worn, and you're not one of the nicest guys i know... you are the nicest. but some things you do cause me pain. and vice versa. i refused to stop using the slippers no matter what. but i guess i shouldn't keep clinging on to something which is not meant to be. or which makes me cry so much. but i'm not going to throw it away. i can't bear to.
i was so tempted just now. when i got on the bus. to drop at the next bus stop and walk back, and throw myself back into your arms and say let's forget it. let's not do this. but i didn't. and then later on i thought perhaps i should stop at the mrt and take a bus back and ring your doorbell. but i didn't. is this for the best? you said you want me to be happy... now i'm wondering how i could ever be truly happy again. but i hate it when i shout at you and i hate it when we argue and both of us are unhappy. and we said we'd keep trying... and we did. but i guess perhaps we've argued enough, and tried enough. and it seems like neither of us can change. we both did try. i guess that stopped me. will it hurt more if we broke up later? because now it hurts so damn bad that i think stabbing myself with a knife will be less painful.
maybe someday... when we are different, more mature, more compatible, more able to handle it. maybe we can be together again. i hope. its not a huge or greatly believed in hope, but its a spark that makes it all a little bit less painful. i hope you'll be happy. i don't want to leave you hanging, not knowing what i want and being unable to give you what you want either. i don't know if i can resist running back to your arms... and i don't know if they will be open for me... but i know... that we at least need some time and space to ourselves for a while. damnit. i want so very much to message you now. i miss you so badly already...... and i still can't believe this happened..... i still half-expect you to message or call and tell me about your queen or something.
i'm sorry. thank you for being there for me, loving me, making me happy.
you are the first and only guy i've ever really loved. i'll never regret all the times we spent together. and i'll never forget you.
i love you.
:8:06 PM: :sugah~plum
i am SO fed up. woke up late today and got yelled at by my mum about bringing my laptop to jb when i never even said i was going to bring it but she yelled at me anyway saying that i will lose it if i go there and even if i leave it in a car the car will get stolen. uh. okay. fine. i just didn't see what there was to yell about. ended up leaving the house unbelievably late and thanks to my dad's skill i got to school right on time. unfortunately i still got to class late coz i took the worse possible route to walk to the accountancy block from SOB, partly because i suddenly realised that i didn't bring my smu card, which is damn troublesome too coz the scary security guards will probably acoust me and ask me to 'display my pass'... sigh. eyes hurt quite a bit now too... nose too... can't see the screen... =( been feeling kinda sick these few days too... maybe tired. or stressed. yes yet another of my slippers BROKE when i was walking in them. any clues that i really need new shoes? thank goodness its only a couple more days til my birkies arrive. yay.
well at least my boyfriend is still here for me. even if i am a horrible girlfriend and neglect him and do things to upset him. i'm glad he still wants me sigh. ohwell... i should pay attention... getting lost in yet another class. don't wanna flunk out. i think i have a GPA to maintain or something. bahs... oh my complexion is so horrible terrible contemptible today... sprouted a pimple or something too. and looked ugly in everything so it took me pretty long to get dressed too sigh. just tried to find something unoffensive to my sensibilities.
sniff. got a really nice message to cheer me up though... and i guess i could just go indulge in some retail therapy now. i'm such a spoilt whiny girl. ohwell. back to class too.
P.S hmmm.... i just calculated something correctly in class! yay... not all hope is lost yet. maybe i won't flunk out after all... fingers crossed.
:12:45 PM: :sugah~plum
oops... supposed to be studying YET again but umm got distracted by online shopping heehee. haha got too many pages to read for bgs tmr!! and gotta wake up at 630! argghh. looks like i need coffee again tmr. hmm... today spent half the day mugging the political science package and sniffling away. seem to have lost my mind, nose and balance too today. woaahh. heehee. damn. shall just browse through the sites and then go "study". yah, right. zzzzzzzzzz.
:12:36 AM: :sugah~plum
heeee. pigging out on chips now YAY. had this craving for agees. sooo gonna grow fat ohwell. hehe and dude where's my car was impossibly funny... and fun too ;p lame show though but lame shows do tend to be rather funny haha. and, i'm glad everything's fine. ahh... the political science readings are a real pain though =( sooooo long winded. ohh i also opened my biz law book for the first time, on the bus yesterday... it was traumatic to say the least... growl... okay shall go snooze soon... after i finish my yummy(!) chips and read a bit more. hee.
:12:53 AM: :sugah~plum
oh ouch ouch yay i found my key!! was searching high and low for it and thought i lost it and was going to whine about it but i found it! and hit my elbow into my wardrobe at the same time, but its okay coz yay i found my house key now! hee. oops. don't know why i'm getting so excited over a key. haha. anyway yay too, because there's a spree on now!! hahahahaa i shall shop. and see if there's anything i like. unfortunately i'm terribly broke now! damn it. but erm... well a little bit of stuff won't hurt =D
ahh anyway pics from friday's estoppel day. haha.
initial ice-cream arrangement.
then we got a bit more ambitious!
hahaa we had some passing the ice cream cups around game where we did a high speed gelato swap and ended up with brain freeze and some gross flavours shudders. was quite funny though hahaa.
then we had a chocolate competition! looks like clara lost... =p
AHHHHHH damnit the spree closed!!!!! just when i was posting out my orders sobs.... anyways i think this sash is rather pretty boohoo. was going to get a nice plain ribbed tank too... i think my lycra one is rather er, tight. and short!
pretty? ahh... what to do got bitten by the shopping bug. need clothes. and shoes. asap. hahahaa. damn need to study for tmr's political science mini quiz... and so i won't be super lost too haha. and need to send out MA emails now!! acks. okay sigh shall stop shopping for now. =(
:10:45 PM: :sugah~plum
oh man...
this class is so tiring. we seem to be repeating the same topic? and i can't seem to ask intelligent questions... when i do i just like instinctively spout some kinda weird question. too used to just asking any questions whenever i please... damn now have to watch it. just look stupid. erm... no idea why we're talking about porn and project superstar in class... AS homework is crazy too, oh man. i think my brain is going to rot eventually. hahaha.
sians not going for freshman bash. ohwell. like didn't get into the performing team for dance too... and i don't know if i should go for the introductory hiphop lessons. or the latin dance auditions. sians. looks like i'm not going to be dancing much... well we'll see... anyways. and if you're reading this, it really is okay, because you made my life so much richer than that. too bad i can't have everything, but hey, who does... it would be selfish and greedy of me to want or expect to get everything hmm? in the first place i shouldn't even have ever thought that way. tsktsks. you make me happy though hee.
haha, my diagram for AS. and you wonder why you need a uni student to draw it. and why the heck do we have to do preparation for biz law?! wail. btw the damn AS worksheet is only worth 2.5 marks. -_- and if i don't read up before biz law i can't freaking understand anything! die die die.
growls. bored. went through another can of coffee today. want more!! da is merrily sleeping again... doodeedoo... another project to do! oh damn that reminds me i need to research smes... PTOOIE. yawn. OHHHH i want to go shopping!!!!! there's like a skirt and a top online i'm considering buying.... and i want to go far east plaza to look at clara's dad's shoesssss wahhhh those she wears are so nice. i want a new jacket/sweater thing too! sians. damn it i need to go earn money too.... =( TO SHOP. wahaha. haven't shopped properly for ages. damnit. i wanna wear my wedges to school tooo... but i become too tall when i wear it. and it kinda hurts too. haha damn. where are my birkies!!! come quick... fly faster.... its been... about 9 or 10 days... FLY FASTER i tell you!
ok shit i'm high on coffee and not understanding business law. and on convoluted arguments for AS. heehee. should i buy these things? they're so pretty.......
heeheehee. save me from myself :p
:10:44 AM: :sugah~plum