i cried again today. because i think it really is over. and it hurt to hear how pained he sounded. i didn't really believe it at first... but i think it is. and after thinking about it, being upset and crying and missing him badly for a while my friends brought distractions, and school stuff and studying did too. so i stopped thinking about it for a while. but the call today... somehow i feel bad for starting to move on already. maybe everyone's right, maybe i'll be happier without him. but it was great while it lasted. and i really don't think badly of you. maybe just a little... but i think worse of myself. i need space i guess. but you're right, you have to move on too. i don't want you to be upset over me for long... just not to forget the good times. and i hope one day we can be friends again. i don't know.
it'll take me a while to get over you. but i know my friends are here with me supporting me. so i will be okay. you take care joel. hugs. i hope you find someone more deserving of your love and more suitable for you. i'm glad we brought happiness to each other's lives at least for a brief shining moment.
i guess it really is goodbye.....
time to find myself.
:2:04 AM: :sugah~plum