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Tuesday, May 30, 2006

MORE PEOPLE DYING. NOOOO AAARGH.

Watched 4 depressing films in the span of 28 hours; Paradise Now, Crash, He Loves Me, He Loves Me Not, and Dirty Pretty Things. I swear the next movie I watch has to either be X-Men or a damn comedy. Okay I sound like I'm too free, huh. But I do love movies and shows. Makes you feel.

So, so, so saddening.

Sometimes love just isn't enough. But if love isn't enough, then what is?

I guess it isn't everything though. Martyrdom may appear somewhat pointless sometimes, killing yourself and perhaps many other people too, to make a stand or a point which may or may not be carried across through the deed... but I guess, maybe, just maybe, it's not as stupid as it seems. I think I'm actually convinced now that sometimes there simply is no other choice.

Responsibility? Obligation? Duty? Money? Friendship? Sentiment? Conscience?

People are scary. Don't piss them off man. Why are people so angry and hate each other so much? Oppression really seems to breaks the spirit, and rob people of their morals, even.

Perhaps hope is.

I've always thought that people won't cheat if they really love each other. Unless there's something wrong in the relationship. Or, they were really drunk. But there's never really an excuse for doing it.

There are so many things much bigger than ourselves.

Sometimes, there exists so much irony, it makes me wonder whether we've got everything wrong, and it is actually all the other way around. It's true, I used to be so much more complete. But being happy makes you forget everything else that's important as well. It clouds your vision, and makes you think that the world's such a wonderful place, when it really isn't. But sometimes it's good to be happy, to have no troubles. Moderation, anyone?

Sometimes I wish people can just see past the facade, the visage and demeanour, and find the girl who exists only in my dreams, whom I myself can't find.

Perhaps one reason I like Grey's Anatomy so much is that I see myself doing some of the absolutely ridiculous or stupid things Meredith does, and maybe, I can envision someone saying to me, that awful thing McDreamy said to her. I so can. I can imagine me saying it to myself, but what effect would that have? And besides, not everyone talks to themselves really.

I woke up at 5pm today, and 6pm yesterday. Talk about screwed up hours, and being a total bum.

"Nice to know that my conscience is still lurking around somewhere in a corner, at least."

Because no matter how much I say it doesn't, or even if it technically really shouldn't at all, some things still bother me. And it's ridiculous, absolutely ridiculous.

I guess some things just don't change.

:7:14 PM: :sugah~plum

Sunday, May 28, 2006

As the Backstreet Boys once sang, "As Long As You Love Me".

10:43am, May 26th 2005:

From postsecret.com,
Regret...

I write ONE bitchy post and get this. I've never really had such criticism, and its upsetting and at the same time slightly amusing. I appreciate the honest comment, and I do agree, that that post is rather bitchy (yes, well the title did give some sort of warning didn't it?) but really, insulting my friends' judgment and honesty as well? Going too far. But it's saddening, as always, to know that some people think this way of me. Though I suppose bitch is a step up from slut or skank. Well. I'm aware that I'm becoming much less nice. But somehow I don't care as much as I should; I'm tired of letting others step all over me.

Anyway. Moving rapidly along (as Liz always says hehe),

Yesterday was crash AC day! Haha. It was HILARIOUS and completely chaotic and madcap. Leb, Sulynn, Yina and Yuepeng were back on breaks from studying overseas and joined a whole bunch of us in donning our school uniforms, shoes, badge and all, and pretended to be students for the day! Haha, okay except for the wrong t-shirts, lack of badge, caleb's earring (gasp!), and yp's outlandish but very cool hair (which EVERY teacher groaned about), I think we did a pretty good job of pretending to be students. We were umm, a tad bit too loud though, methinks. Haha. Didn't manage to crash any classes though when I was there, but we did manage to see almost all our teachers while wandering around the school. We even had a 'Search for The K-ster' as Xiangwei put it... in an arduous hunt for our GP teacher, haha. For more information and pictures, please refer here.

Things will never be the same again.

Spent the whole of Tuesday and Wednesday walking around Arab Street and Bugis Village. Was supposed to go with Crystal and Da on Tues, but things cropped up for the both of them so I just went alone. And the funny thing is, after walking around these two places and spending money, I went again with Crystal on Weds and spent MORE money. How amazing that I can still find things to buy in the same place. Although well, not the exact same shops. Heh. Crystal and I have concluded that we should stop shopping together for a while, we seem to encourage each other to spend money much too much.

Me heart Crystal :)

Watched MI:3 yesterday and decided that action movies are sad. True, they fill you with an adrenaline rush and keeps you on your toes as you hope beyond hope that the hero doesn't die, or that something doesn't crash, that something bad doesn't happen. The thrill and suspense, and the impossibly complicated technology which makes the impossible, possible, is really quite exciting. However, what I don't like about action movies is that too many people die. If its for a good cause, like in V for Vendetta or something like that, it's not quite as bad. But to steal some unknown weapon of mass destruction to hand over to a villian to save a life, yes it does sound noble and all, but think about all the people getting killed to achieve this cause. The security guards outide a building who get shot just because they're doing their job to watch someone's property, who may have families and loved ones of their own who would grieve immensely for them as well. What makes their lives less valuable than the heroine's? What makes anyone's life more valuable, so to speak, than the next person's anyway. But I guess at critical moments no one really thinks about such things, and then again, it really only is just a movie. Ah well.


12:18am, 28th May 2006:

Many things to say, but keeping it short and simple.

Watched Grease today, it wasn't as good as expected, but was pretty fun and entertainining anyhow.

I've always liked this song, but today it struck a bit of a note with me, more than usual.

Guess mine is not the first heart broken
My eyes are not the first to cry
I'm not the first to know
There's just no getting over you

You know I'm just a fool who's willing
To sit around and wait for you
But, baby, can't you see
There's nothing else for me to do?
I'm hopelessly devoted to you

But now there's nowhere to hide
Since you pushed my love aside
I'm out of my head
Hopelessly devoted to you
Hopelessly devoted to you

My head is saying, "Fool, forget him."
My heart is saying, "Don't let go.
Hold on till the end."
And that's what I intend to do
I'm hopelessly devoted to you


Sounds pathetic yeah, but I guess we all have our moments; and that certain someone who can make you push your pride aside and allow the supposedly weaker, emotional side to show. No one's really willing to let their vulnerability or true feelings show though, for fear of rejection, of being looked down upon or whatever.


3:31pm, 28th May 2006:
Favourite song of the moment: Ge Qian by Jay Chou
Check it out here: http://youtube.com/watch?v=jwbREUBPKFY&search=ge%20qian%20jay%20chou

Mehhhhhs. I just looked through my archives, of a year ago. And I actually sounded happy. Very much so. Geez, what happened.

I need a job. And perhaps this time I should try getting a proper one. Haha, except that my attention span might not be able to make it. Caleb is convinced that I have ADD... and actually, I think I agree with him. Scones, anyone?

I think I need some sort of purpose or something.

:4:43 PM: :sugah~plum

Sunday, May 21, 2006

"Beware! I had a bowl of bitchy for breakfast."

"Poor" Jared....

Well no, actually I had some fabulous chocolate almond biscotti from Da Paolo's which Brandon bought for me yesterday (YAY thanks brandon =D), but yeah well that's besides the point. Been entertaining a number of rather bitchy thoughts today and wondering if I should pen them down.

The bitchiness seems to have worn off though, (it's been quite a while since breakfast, really) and I'm quite inclined to let the offensive remark pass for now. Giving one the benefit of doubt, it could have been a offhand, ignorant comment on her part. And I being the bigger person, will of course let it slide. Haha. Although, I should think that it is quite normal to be slightly outraged or incensed at having your supposed specialty be insulted by one who probably has less experience in this particular aspect, though granted, has more in another way; and who isn't even all that good really. Now if someone who was really good and who had the right to give such 'advice' or unwarranted comments, said something like that, I would accept it and seek to improve and learn from it. But well, shrug, tis just an innocent little comment, probably, and that's that, really.

And well, I could be bitchy about the AC DEP exam performance, Theasthai, but I shall be as diplomatic as possible. But I am suitably and honestly impressed by a number of the candidates; firstly, Ben, who did something from Wuthering Heights, who had a gorgeous kind of English royalty sort of voice which was perfect for his piece. Annapurna, who very realistically portrayed a mentally handicapped kid, and Deanna, who played a young woman with physical deformities. Others of note would be Laura with Chinadoll, the girl who played I'm A Good Little Girl and the one who did the Mayor of Zalamea or something like that, I forget.

I'm sure there were others who were not bad, just that I didn't notice. I did however, notice the significant amount of shouting and bad, bad diction. Which is quite sad, but alright, rather unfair to be judging them based on that since I supposed they haven't really had all that much training. I just thought expectations should kind of be higher though, since it's an exam and all. And I do admit, I'm slightly discriminating against terrible diction and timbre, cadence of voice quality, and of course biased towards the opposite. Human nature, I suppose, to be drawn to the aesthetically pleasing. But I suppose I shouldn't be too critical seeing as how I'm really not all that good myself. Haha. Yes, yes except for playing psychotic crying women it seems.

Oh and there was quite a bit of fooling around and joking on Friday, which was designated Jared Grooming Day, although when Crystal and I met him we weren't very sure where to bring him so we just tried a couple of guy's shops and made him try a whole ton of clothes. And in the process, somehow managed to purchase some items of our own as well, which we kind of saw along the way; while poor Jared didn't find anything suitable. Got chided by Tzeyi when he (finally) arrived to drive us to Marine Parade to get Jared's MACHIAM shoes and some clothes too. HEY we didn't deserve the scolding, we did try! But do we look like we know where to buy guy's clothings? While waiting for someone who was oh, let me think, THREE hours late? Gosh...

And WELL, we have impeccably high standards for clothing so if it doesn't look fantastic, its out. NO to scary baby/bright/light/whatever yellow/blue t-shirts!

See Zee was so mad he threatened to drive really fast to scare poor us in the backseat! Observe our pure look of terror and fright =p

When he really carried out his threat and swerved the car!

Okay I'm just kidding. (About the mad and threatening part, not the swerving.)

Okay it's slightly annoying how I always look terrible in these madcap candid shots but oh well, if it's entertaining.

AHAHAHA SG Idol is such a laugh.... HILARIOUS man oh my goodness. Hahaha I'm glad I stayed home to watch it. Why on earth do people subject themselves to such humiliation though?! I mean if it's all in the name of good fun and if they just went there to clown around a bit and have some fun it's alright, but oh dear some really, really tone deaf people go there, announce that they're so good and can be the next Singapore Idol, proceed to sing completely off key, flat, or with forgotten/mispronounced lyrics and then look totally surprised when they get rejected, and run out in tears! Simply bizarre. Perhaps it would have been kinder if their friends told them the truth about their singing and not allowed them to be publicly humiliated, over national tv even. I suspect some of the rejects were hired to make the show interesting. Because interesting and entertaining, that it was. Nothing to make for good tv like quirky, amusing, downright laughable characters.

Shakes head. Slight errors in pronouncation and diction get on my nerves. Horrendously bad ones like 'nong nong ago' and 'stars up above in your lice', however, crack me up BIG time. In my opinion, the idea is probably to either be damn good, or just downright baaaaaaaad/different/funny. The average ones sometimes not only don't get through, but don't even get their 15 seconds of fame or get shown in totally unflattering 3 second shots showing them singing bad notes.

Hah. Perhaps next year I shall go join too, and experience all the amusing events firsthand. You can count on me not to cry or make a big fuss about getting rejected or accepted in the first round though, what's up with all that melodrama? Maybe its the self-conscious-there's-a-camera-pointing-at-me syndrome. Haha anyone up to join me for some fun? I'm SOOO tickled.

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Added in from the previous post...

Just let it go.

Sometimes Fate makes cruel mockeries of our short, transient lives. But often enough human follies and frustrations are a result of our own choices and mistakes, and simply our own damn fault, even though most people love to push the blame to someone or something else. We're all guilty of it. We like to blame fate for everything. It's true, that we cannot change the things which are truly beyond our control; but we can seek to change those which are. Because not doing anything at all and simply attributing a plight to Fate is usually a sign of laziness or unwillingness to strive for one's own ideals, or to just try. An excuse, to explain away one's own weaknesses or other undesirable qualities or situations which we all keep tucked away neatly under the cobwebs in the recesses of our closets.

But I think I now have a clearer inkling of the term 'not meant to be', and that some things won't succeed no matter how much one tries or works towards them. Like how if a patient is meant to die, no number of attempts to shock him with electric currents is going to bring him back.

But that doesn't mean we don't try.

Because... "then we can say, that we've done absolutely everything we could".

:11:51 PM: :sugah~plum

Thursday, May 18, 2006

Bad form, and Fate's cruel mockeries.

"Because you're a sentimental fool."
And that I am.



Ahahaha. I thought this caption was really strange. Outside the U2 shop in Taka. Like hello?! And speaking of salsa...

By any chance do these two people look familiar? ;p

Anyway. QM is finally over (YAY!). Just hope I did well enough for the course. To meet my own expectations. Awaiting results of appeal, may not be able to continue taking social science, which upsets me greatly but well. Fingers crossed.

MY ALIGNMENT IS OFF! WHY IS MY ALIGNMENT OFF mutter the border on the right size has gone missing and I can't seem to fix it, bah. I'm allergic to slight (or yes, even ridiculously extreme) deviations from perfection in aesthetic works. As discovered in the course of LTB.

Bad form.

Sometimes, it's not what you do, but how you do it. And, who is doing it. But generally, bad form pisses me off big time. Have some consideration or ethics already. Even some rules of engagement would be good, even though the activity itself is somewhat deplorable already, but everyone (okay so I'm generalizing, you could happen to fall outside this stereotype) likes to have dirty little fun sometimes and it would be rather nice to have good form in such cases, really.

Trust me, you're much likelier to succeed with good form and the right attitude. Unless of course, you're a gorgeous, dashing, charming son-of-a-bitch/bitch then yes well, go right ahead and do whatever the hell you want to. You'd probably succeed anyway, but good luck with dealing with your conscience or failures when you meet with them. I'm not dissing charm, in fact I'm a big sucker for it, but yeah well don't go thinking it'll get you everywhere and anywhere.


Haha. I'm rambling, again. But then it has been a couple of days since I was pissed off so well I suppose the drive for catharsis is lacking at the moment.

And well, I'm not really turning lesbian, contrary to what this picture suggests. Crystal dear is just amazingly fun to bachata with. Of course, much better when I'm wearing my pants (manly, hah!) and not my pretty pink skirt.

I've decided that she's my new partner (doll!) in my quest to learn how to lead. It's a bit of a headache though, but actually rather fun! Managed to traumatise a poor girl in Tzeyi's B2 class though hahahaha I think she thought I was crazy.

Haha been eating a lot recently too... check this out =p
Dim sum buffet at Yum Cha.... mmm.

Dessert platter at Corduroy and Finch's, doesn't it look simply divine?


Just like I predicted, we're at the point of no return
We can go backwards, and no corners have been turned
I can't control it, if I sink or if I swim
'Cause I chose the waters that I'm in

And it makes no difference who is right or wrong
I deserve much more than this
'Cause there's only one thing I want

If it's not what you're made of
You're not what I'm looking for
You where willing but unable to give me anymore
There's no way,
You're changing,
Cause some things will just never be mine,
You're in not love this time...but it's alright.


What a nice song. The French version is even nicer... much, much nicer actually haha, plus its a duet and duets are really beautiful when done well :)

Just let it go.

Okay I had more to say but its 5am and I'm sleepy, so goodnight.

:4:26 PM: :sugah~plum

Monday, May 15, 2006

Make me tingle.


"For a kiss to be really good, you want it to mean something. You want it to be with someone you can't get out of your head, so that when your lips finally touch you feel it everywhere. A kiss so hot and so deep you never want to come up for air. You can't cheat your first kiss. Trust me, you don't want to. Cause when you find that right person for a first kiss, it's everything."
- Alex Karev, Grey's Anatomy


It's sad, just how little a kiss means these days. And for most of us, its too late to hold out for that wonderful first kiss. But I guess not everyone believes in fairytales either, and perhaps this perfect first kiss thing is merely an urban myth. But then again, it could mean the first kiss with someone, and not one's first kiss ever. I think I know exactly what Alex Karev is trying to get at. Because I've had that, once. And I'm not about to forget it in a hurry.

Sometimes it does mean something, when people give it a shot thinking it could make you feel something, simply because you never know. But it doesn't quite always work that way.


A kiss is just a kiss, until it makes you tingle. Then it becomes an electric current, a fire that cannot be extinguished; which shoots warm tingles down every single nerve in your body. And THAT is what I call a kiss.

And well, they don't come by very often.

"You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. But the thing is it's hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true.

At the end of the day faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don't really expect it. It's like one day you realize that the fairy tale may be slightly different than you dreamed. The castle, well, it may not be a castle. And it's not so important happy ever after, just that its happy right now. See once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you, and once in a while people may even take your breath away."
- Meredith Grey, Grey's Anatomy


It's kinda funny, when someone else believes more in your fairytale than you do. But yes, contrary to the cranky I-hate-men-and-am-turning-lesbian MSN nicks, I do still have the smallest bit of faith that everything will turn out well in the end. I'm just that way. A cranky moment is simply, a cranky moment.

Perhaps I do understand. When someone's life is glitzy and exciting and packed full with committments, activities, fun and life, there's no room for much else. But I'm still glad I met him. Having another friend is hardly ever a bad thing.

And it will pass.

I need a project to undertake, something to do. Instead of writing about such frivolous stuff early in the morning. Geez.

:5:32 AM: :sugah~plum

Friday, May 12, 2006

How typical, a post dedicated to shoes and men.



"It's too late, you missed the boat."

How fascinating, at both my meals yesterday in groups of 4, I had my chair pulled out for me and a member of the male species wait for me to sit so they could push the chair in. Simple chivalry is not dead after all, contrary to popular belief. How delightful.

Having a little problem with the wireless internet connection at home, so am only able to pop online now and then, when I manage to steal the ADSL modem and all those wires from my dad's/sis's computer.

Have one last episode of Grey's Anatomy to watch, which would conclude the tumultuous relationship I've had with it. It's a surprisingly good substitute for a boyfriend or even a life. Haha. Yes but only for a week or two, really. Pity it took somewhat of a downhill around the second half of the second season. Or perhaps watching about 7 episodes in one day is too much a dosage for one day.

If shoes were men.

Every girl needs shoes. Whether its the gorgeous to-die-for USD$400 Manolo Blahnik stiletto heels or the simple SGD$10 slippers for casual wear, they love them anyway.

Slippers, birkenstocks, heels (1, 2, 2.5, 3, 4), stilettos, wedges, espadrilles, pointy-toed heels, closed-toed heels, round-toed pumps, kitten heels, yoga soft-soled shoes, sneakers, and the list goes on. Even though I have them all, there are only 2 or 3 pairs which I actually even wear. And one of them, I wear 99% of the time. The white birkenstocks, which started out pristine white and hard, but is now not-so-white-and-more-like-grey, cushy and comfy but wearing out at the heel edges of the sole. Maybe it's like that too, with men. Starts out new and perfect, but when you get to know him better you realise that as with every other human being, he is flawed as well, but becomes more comfortable to be with as time passes. You like it so much, you only wear that pair except when situation dictates that you can't. But funny, it's possible to wear it out too much until it is in a sad condition and needs to be replaced.

And then when you replace that pair; that pair of shoes which you feel so comfortable in, which matches all your clothes, never bites you and has been with you almost every single day for the last few months - you simply cannot bear to throw it away. But a week or two after, a month or two later, when the new pair you bought to replace it grows on you, even though you said at the start it'll never be the same again without the old one, you start to forget about the old pair, and the new one becomes that one favoured pair which you never get sick of wearing.

The transition period is never easy, though. So take care of your shoes if you want them to last.

And sometimes, it feels good to wear that pair of gorgeous stilettos which flatters your leg shape and boosts your height, making you feel absolutely beautiful.

Pity about the blisters though.


I think this only works for me though, because most girls do actually wear different pairs of shoes every day. Perhaps they rotate between 4 or 5 favourite pairs, and the rest they just wear once in a long while.

But well, I'm running late once again and so I shall just conclude here for now.

"It's not whether you win or lose, it's how you play the game, right?"

:5:22 PM: :sugah~plum

Sunday, May 07, 2006

Grey's Anatomy rocks.

And it's rapidly overtaking Sex And The City as my favourite television series of all time. Haha. Gosh, I haven't posted in a week. Haven't been doing much really, except watching Grey's anatomy and dancing. Lots of dancing; Union on Tuesday and Friday, Attica and Zouk on Wednesday and Hard Rock on Thursday. And also because my fat feet are squished into tiny shoes. Oh dear. No wonder my feet hurt. Much like many dull fat needles poking into my balls. Had quite a few good dances this week though, which was rather delightful.

Mambo on Weds was great! Haven't mamboed in like forever, and especially with Dawn and Eugene. Damn Xiangwei didn't come though haha damn. But pleasant that there was eye candy around, hmm. Oh yes, almost forgot, got REALLY rather high too and was wobbling a bit. Regretted it the next day though what with all the puking :x Keep forgetting that I'm somewhat allergic to alcohol, which induces me to puke even when I'm not even freaking drunk or hungover. Tsk. But doesn't hurt to be high once in a while, considering its so terribly hard to get me high which means that it hardly ever happens.

And in the true Michelle randomness fashion, Shan makes a good pillow. And I like my bed. It's nicer now that the top bunk is gone. And I like my new hair, I cut it quite a bit shorter and thinned it a bit so it doesn't look like an entire forest of hair and tried to colour it purple (but it turned out kinda ribena blackcurrant purple kinda purple rather than er, purple kinda purple). And hmm, I've discovered that I get rather incoherent and giggly at insane hours (especially after doing projects). QM is proving to be quite a bore - and rather tough too. But ok granted, some of it is kinda interesting.

"Why do I hit myself repeatedly with a hammer? Because it feels so good when I stop."

Back to Grey's Anatomy. ;p


..... And thus I woke up at 10am to a giant empty space here that was a result of me sleeping on my keyboard (the letter b, m and the spacebar, specifically), oops. Thank goodness I managed to click Save as Draft in my sleep as well (or slept on the Enter key?).

Oh yes, also discovered that I was entangled in my blanket, charger wire and headphone wires.

And oh oh yay, I bought Chubby Hubby yesterday because I haven't seen that flavour for ages! Haven't eaten it since erh, like 2 years ago. Just had to get a tub before it ended up in the flavour graveyard. Haha.

Okay back to sleep now.


And it sounds wondrous, but it could never happen to me. Excess baggage, too many unidentified feelings which belong in the hazy mist of doubt and denial. The too serious attitude I have towards it which completely contradicts my flippant one towards some other, not exactly unrelated things. Which might make me a hypocrite, in some strange, twisted way. And I hate hypocrites. Classic Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde, I suppose. Wrong country, wrong age, wrong hangups. I belong in a soap drama or something, or maybe I just watch too much tv. I just doubt it'll ever happen to me. Perhaps it's not a bad thing I guess, just me.

3 weeks.

"Denial isn't just a river in Egypt. It's a freaking ocean."

Sometimes I wonder, when I will ever stop hitting.

:5:30 AM: :sugah~plum

Monday, May 01, 2006

No matter what happens, life goes on.

Crystal: "Your skirt flies like a cupcake! So pretty!"
Da: "Cupcakes don't fly!"

The aforementioned skirt, which finally arrived from the US last week, yay :)

Okay granted, it does remind one a little of a cupcake, somehow.

Brandon: "Shitake!"..... "Uh as in... shit... pg version."



Met up with the boys yesterday for sushi buffet and ice cream, YAY. Oh no we totally sound like pigs lah haha. But yes yay Brandy bought me Haagen Daaz chocolate chocolate chip ice cream in a cone, yummy. (Haha he said he'd buy me ice cream when I was sad about studying stats! :) Okay the amount of ice cream I had yesterday was just heavenly lah haha, Haagen Daaz in the afternoon, and 1 spoon each of Ben and Jerry's Fossil Fuel and New York Super Fudge Chunk, and half a tub of (Ben and Jerry's) Strawberry Cheesecake. Mmm. In heaven. Haha. Have decided that Fossil Fuel is DAMN good and that I shall acquire a tub soon. Phish Food sounds marvellous too mmm.

Don't they look simply droolworthy and fantabulous? Mmm.

Brandon is hilarious, and a bigger Ben and Jerry's fan than me (and that's no mean feat, ok). Check this out =p

25-Apr-06 2:04:42 PM ta!ka - food of the day: california sundried raisins
did you know that today is free scoop day at ben and jerry's?
25-Apr-06 2:07:29 PM ta!ka - food of the day: california sundried raisins
get your free scoop nowww
25-Apr-06 2:07:41 PM .:. mich*e||e .:. aero day!
but BnJ's all so out of the way leh
25-Apr-06 2:08:22 PM ta!ka - food of the day: california sundried raisins
did agamemnon complain that troy was too out of the way?
25-Apr-06 2:08:55 PM ta!ka - food of the day: california sundried raisins
and ben and jerrys is much more important than some weird city

Haha ok but I digress, hrm.

Hehe yes anyway so had lunch with Eugy and Josh before Brandon came along for ice cream and some Kino shopping
(sidenote: I wish I bought Dream Hunters instead of Mirrormask! The art is drop dead gorgeous! :) Miss them all haha had fun and took alot of random pics omg.

Eugene matches the wall!

..... And his drink (orange-guava haha, his own concoction!) too!

Teehee.

Haha I wasn't kidding when I said a lot ;p (most are from josh's phone cam though hahaha)

Met up with Po Yew too! (Oh his driving isn't -that- bad lah hehehe) Whom I haven't seen for quite a while as well... Because at night we were all bored and we somehow ended up at Brandy's house with Eugene Josh and Melvin (whom I haven't seen for an EVEN longer time, omg) and........ watched them all play PS2 HAHAHAAHA. Okay more like I watched them play PS2, and fell asleep (on Brandy's giant yellow-and-black-soccer-ball beanbag =), and woke up and watched some more, pigged out on chips, and fell asleep again. Haha. The CG character Dante from Devil May Cry is actually pretty hot!! Hahahaha.

Well got bored of watching the boys play PS2 and whatnot, so went to Po Yew's house to watch Se7en and read his All about the Sandman book (I forgot the title? But I LOVE SANDMAN OMG.) Se7en was a pretty good movie! Cool twist of plot (though ok, I did guess quite a bit lah haha), and yes yes I know, you mean I haven't watched it yet?! Yes, I live under a rock, never tried foie gras before, and only recently discovered geylang and frog porridge.

Saturday's facilitating was pretty fun too, ran around trying to help our group with their tasks. But they mostly did it themselves so we didn't really do much lah actually. Haha. But was interesting to watch, haha.

Random act artistic shot.

The fluffly pink pen that caused one of my group members to call me a bimbo (HEY!) and which Da poked into her hair and ran away with.

Hehe the event seemed to turn into a platform for us soon-to-be year 2s to have fun instead =p Lance and Xiayue in the balloon event... check out Xiayue's look of bliss!

Haha ok my photouploading function seems to have died so I can't upload the picture of Crystal taller than me, and Shan with my pink fluffy pen. Ohwell. Just ask me if you want the rest, there are about 20 haha but all quite random. That's it for now I guess. Haha am supposed to be attempting to study QM now for tomorrow's quiz, considering I slept the ENTIRE day away (no I'm not kidding) and started studying at 8pm, but oh well.

Oh, and I can cook meatballs. :D

:11:46 PM: :sugah~plum

:: morning found the breeze, a hundred miles away. ::