Doodeedoo.
Wahahahaha ok random thought of the day - seems like I really am some sort of a good luck charm... goodness. Not that I'm trying to excuse my behaviour or anything, but I'm just kind of... amused.
And my forehead looks like a freaking world map now from all that peeling; not sure how I'm gonna salvage it. Went cable boarding - and didn't have the foresight to keep applying sunblock haha. The ache the few days after is also NOT funny man. And still, cannot stand and ride yet, bah.
We also.... jumped off a tower. DAMN SCARY and quite painful to hit the water but quite cool lah actually. Haha.Starting internship next Monday; required to be in at the office around 7.45am every day. One wonders why I subject myself to such torture when I don't really even have to :/ but anyway, if anyone works around the harbourfront area and would like to have lunch please let me know :P but I think I will sort of miss my bumming days. What I've been doing for the past few weeks haha... it got kind of boring, but I'm starting to get used to it now... uh oh.
But I guess it's kinda like everytime you get used to something it's somehow time to stop doing it. Weird. But anyway I guess it's good to get some exposure/experience and well, work my brains a little and not let it rot away over the summer.
Anyway, also went to support Da in her fashion show thing at Kandi Bar last Thurs, then went to Bleeding Gums after. Seems like quite a while since I've clubbed properly (ie. full-out crazy drinking and dancing), but this was quite fun too!
Doesn't she look HAWTTTTT!
HELLO MR. PINK yayyyyyy.Ah well... I have 5 more days to finish my exchange application/slack/play/enjoy etc and then its back to work. And hmm, why are the results taking so long to all come back this term!
Haha. Ok enough rambling for the day! :)
:10:50 PM: :sugah~plum
Where do you draw the line?
I've been wondering, how to balance between the desires of the individual and the concerned well-meaning advice of friends. It seems like I'm constantly in a position where I wish to pursue paths which somehow usually doesn't sit too well with others. And I know they usually mean well, but then the next question is, do you continue following your heart, even if it means you may get hurt or hurt others in the process, or do you listen to the advice of others and thus keep your friendships? I'm sure there must be a way to do both.
Somehow, I always end up picking the first option. I guess I've always been a believer of the old cliche of 'follow(ing) your heart', and deep down am a hopeless idealist (thinks there is salvation for the world blahblahblah), so I guess I can only hope that my friends and family will still support me no matter how bizarre my choices may seem. But I know that sometimes you really can't ask for too much. But in the end, you're the one who has to live with your choices, mostly.
Seems like the individual vs. society debate has been an issue which has been much pondered over across time. Somewhere in a textbook somewhere, it says that the Western culture is more individualistic, where people are more focused on their personal flaws or talents as being the attributes which determine the outcome of certain things, and the Asian culture is more societal - whereby the group is of higher importance, things which upset the group culture and way of life is frowned upon, and situations are attributed to external factors instead. Which makes me wonder. What are we, then? A mix of both? A mishmash of culture? Perhaps.
Does it make one terribly selfish though, to just go ahead and do whatever they like? I've always thought that as long as you don't overdo things, don't hurt people (if you can help it...), etc etc it should be okay. But it isn't always okay... sometimes some people never want to let you fulfill your dreams and put you in a horrible spot - which really makes you wonder, why would people you love, and who you thought loved you, do things like that to you? To force you to give up one dream for another. Maybe its a natural check, to tell people that they can't have everything.
It seems there always has to be a catch. Sometimes, it's possible to overlook, sometimes it can be fixed, and sometimes it's just.... no way. But... perhaps I will be proven wrong, and there would be things so perfect that there just aren't any catches at all.
And sometimes, when people aren't in the same situation or experienced a similar situation, it's not easy to offer perspective. And even so, everyone has a different set of values that they hold dear, and not everything works the same for everyone. Plus I think that people who are happy, content and settled in their lives don't think in quite the same way.
But I digress. And I exaggerate, and I ramble. But well, the cough medication is kicking in now, and it's probably best not to go on in this drifty, sleepy state.
Therefore, goodnight, and thank you for reading.
:6:27 PM: :sugah~plum
California Dreams.
So my school term is over, and I've spent the past four days simply enjoying life, lounging around, and SLEEPING. As a result, I've ended up dreaming about 2 weeks worth of dreams, as the sort of sleep I've been getting for the past few weeks simply disallowed it. Of particular concern, is the fact that I've been dreaming about... dinosaurs. Or well, huge scary monsters or something.
Even more bizarre specifics, is that I think I wanted to cut the tail off a brontosaurus or something (to attach to the back of a jeep to disguise it as a dinosaur...??), but I spoke to it and found that it was nice and I couldn't do it. And in another I was trying to lock myself and some people in a room away from the horde of T-Rexes or some other weird monster/dinosaur types which were charging up the stairs (don't ask me how they managed to fit into the stairway, please). The weirdness goes on.
And for some reason, I can actually remember bits of these dreams... and I usually don't. Please don't think I'm crazy now, hah. And the interesting thing is that the dinosaur dreams both happened when I was sleeping by myself, haha. Uh, not that I usually don't, but yes. Just an observed trend.
But well, I've been enjoying being able to finally relax and not have to think about the next deadline or the next midterm; though I think I will get bored of having nothing to do soon, and go a little mad. Still trying to find an internship, and perhaps do some CIP now that I'm quite free.
Haha but well, I'll take it as it comes.
But things are looking up these days, so we'll see.
(And the title of the post is from Chungking Express, which I managed to catch over the weekend, not my dreams.)
:2:27 PM: :sugah~plum
Oh it's been a long time, it has.
But I am happy tonight.
:2:15 AM: :sugah~plum