Foooooooooooood.
What is WITH the obsession with being thin, anyway? I mean, I must admit that I'm one of the sad suckers in society who do try to chase that "ideal", but anyway, it's really very rude and not nice to be MEAN to people who aren't. Seriously. Unless it's actually getting in the way of your health/turning into a social outcast, people should have the right and the choice to eat stuff they like without watching every calorie. Otherwise life will be very sad, okay. But fine, I guess if you're not a food lover then it doesn't matter.
But really, people can be so mean. And not just to fat people.
In other news, this is a very boring list of Singaporean (ok well stuff I couldn't get overseas or was too poor to eat) food, which I have eaten in the past 3 weeks back home/want to eat soon :P it's really for my own entertainment, so you don't have to read it if you don't want to haha.
(obviously after a while I got abit lazy and stopped taking photos)
Chai dao kuey
Dua tau
Laksa
Beehoon goreng pedas
Bisteak goreng
Beef noodles
McSpicy
Yu pian mi fen with milk
Ok the list goes on and on... but actually now that I'm back I'm not in a huge rush to eat all the different kinds haha. Plenty of time. It's nice to be back in the land of good (and affordable) food though! And also nice to not have to put on/remove a huge pile of clothing whenever I go outdoors/indoors.
But I do miss Europe, the cool weather, the freedom, the old school feel, the beautiful nature - mountains, rivers, green pastures, etc. And the friends I made, too. But this is still home, and I've more or less settled back in already. Soon Europe will be naught but a distant memory; although, just less than a month ago I was - bravely climbing Gellert Hill in Budapest at 11pm at night, idly strolling through Naschmarkt in Vienna, and eating fried carp in Prague with a Czech family, like 70% of all households in the Czech Republic.
Haha. I promise not to be one of those people who never get over my exchange though... life goes on! ;P
:10:05 PM: :sugah~plum
Even a doormat can get tired of being stepped on.
You know, what gets me the most, is the sore lack of pride and surety in being associated with me in a certain way, and how I'm wanted and thought of only when it is convenient.
Enough is enough; every girl deserves to be loved and... valued, treasured. To have an important person who actually shares his life with her.
Not treated as... a convenience, or a plaything.
But the fault is as much mine as it is his - for wanting too much, for needing too much, and for not being strong enough to extricate myself from a ridiculous and hopeless situation. It's not someone's fault if they don't want you, huh. Maybe more mine.
Or maybe no one's; if you can't live with someone you can't live with someone.
The trouble is, what if you can't live with them... and without them?
But I guess for my sanity and happiness, I have to try.
Wish me luck.
:1:06 PM: :sugah~plum
I'm home.
Actually, I've been home for exactly a week now but for some reason haven't had much time to facebook/upload photos/blog. Been catching up with various bunches of friends and salsa-ing quite a bit etc. Even though I kind of miss Europe and all, it's good to be home.
First class of the term tomorrow at 8.30am in the morning... why did I choose a class on Monday morning at 8.30am?!! Must've been a little bit drunk while bidding.
Anyway, 2009 looks set to be a good year - I suppose the resolution for this year would be to treat myself better, and to appreciate the people who care about and who actually value me. A friend wished me to have more clarity and wisdom in my life this year, and I do hope that I will. Some things just cannot be allowed to continue.
Oh and to figure out what kinda job I want to do, since I would have to start working sometime this year as well. Now that, is stressful.
Europe was just amazing though. I'm really not sure I can describe the whole experience... but it was just so rich, so exciting and so enriching. Perhaps another day when I am more lucid.
Sneak peek into my Czech Christmas experience with a family in Prague:
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Sitting in an empty oasis in the middle of a bustling town/on iron monsters which creak under the weight of ambition and adrenaline by day, but silent by night/basking in the aura of camaraderie and understanding/a serendipitous encounter and an unexpected call/a bizarre discovery and a never-ending cycle/sucked into the mish-mash riff-raffs drib-drabs, of my little world.
:1:30 AM: :sugah~plum