ahh now i remember what i wanted to say. that everyone seems to be disillusioned now. jaded, cynical, whatever. but mostly disillusioned. why? i don't know why. maybe because life never is what it seems to be, and it just doesn't meet our expectations, disappointment sets in. causing disillusionment. ohwell. i can't really say that i'm not disillusioned either. especially with love. everyone has such high hopes and pretty illusions of love, and when they find out the truth... well we all know what happens. well i do believe it exists, not so cynical yet till i refuse to acknowledge its existence. though it does exist, its elusive, and probably, the real thing is not going to happen to me in this lifetime. its alright... not everyone will get what they want, and i should be considered lucky to be alive and in a relatively comfortable situation... physically. mentally and emotionally... i'm just one screwed up kid.
:11:36 AM: :sugah~plum