hellos again hmm i think i haven't posted in quite a while *peers date* oh actually its only 6 days haha:p well for some reason my acculmulated online time is surprisingly high for this month and its barely into the 8th day only... alright i guess that means less posts! hmmhmm well no loss, my posts are usually just crap anyways haha:p ohwell... i was just reading mich's blog just now, and man... it just makes me so envious.... i mean like, just wondering, is anything like that ever going to happen to me? i don't know... maybe i've fallen too far down into the pit of sin and past perepetoia (correct me if i spelt it wrong, i lost my copy of macbeth) that i'm somehow relatively jaded and never going to find anything quite as sweet or nice as that:p but hey, that's life, it goes how it goes.
so... hmm yesterday night was our sji (senior junior interaction) class party. though only about 5 of our seniors came and most of our classmates failed to show, i guess it was pretty alright, everyone getting wet with mr koh spraying the hose at us -_- played some badminton too hahaha but nvm bout that:p anyway i guess its quite nice just hanging out and playing weird card games and stuff like impromptu bucket sloshing (my senior joshua poured a bucket of water on me!) and lotsa squealing:p its fun i guess, wholesome stuff like that. though it needs some getting used to, what with people being so... what's the word... nice? clean? innocent? beats me. i think i must make a resolution to be better in jc... with all these nice good people around... nods. will try. well i do have aspirations too... i decided to work harder in jc too, coz i realized all that slacking around throughout sec sch with such a bad cca record doesn't work for me. if i want a scholarship to study overseas... i've got to slog man. and have a nice cca record. heh i don't know if i can do it, me not really being the serious type often, but like i said, i will try. least i can do is to give it my best shot. if i fail, then at least i know i tried.
suddenly i've run out of words to say. i'm lost i guess i feel like i'm wandering around life without a purpose, like i have well... no main aspiration in life. and i hope i'll be happy in jc. for a while i was wondering if i should go to rj or acj, one reason among others being that a lot of my secondary school friends are in rj. and i don't think i told anyone this, but i think, one of the many reasons why i stayed was because i wanted to start over. a clean slate. my friends, most of them know me. one side of me at least, and the reputation also. i think i need to change that. and well i kinda like the new friends i made, and would like to keep them too... at least they kinda like me (i think...). too many reasons i guess. or maybe i'd gotten emotionally attached to ac i guess, like da said... and like what most people say, which i agree as well, if your friends are close enough to you, years of friendship won't be that easily broken even though you're in seperate jcs. i sure hope it won't disintergrate.
glad sze's coming over to ac tho:) at least there's one nygepper with me! yay:p felt so darn alone in the first week man... i mean most of us had another fellow nygepper in the same school... ohwell nevermind. that time was over... lalalalalala. i'm getting fat. yessssh topic that is quite irritating but heck. i have no idea why, but i eat like SO much more in jc. maybe its the long day and more breaks.... or just the better food (ny was like bleh compared to ac) but aaah! especially the chocolate... so sinful :( someone stop me! i'll grow -so- fat, NO one would want me!:p and i'm so lazy i don't even take a sports cca... nvm hopefully the mass pe will help yikes:p and think i will be thickskinned and try for choir umm -again- after the second intake... if they won't take me i'll run for council -_- well nvm i'll figure that out later... i wanna join line-in too! wonder if i can manage hmmm.
anyways i'm thinking this entry is way too long already. i will stop... then post again or smth HAHAHA. i'm diabolical, no?
:11:08 PM: :sugah~plum
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