supposed to be doing my econs essay, but here i am blogging again. haven't been blogging much recently i think, because haven't really been free. and seems like my posts are getting quite mundane and boring. but ohwell here goes. watched the parade this sat. pretty interesting experience... so i can say that i've once participated in ndp and once watched it. i think it's pretty cool to do everything at least once... that way can experience more things... and well. its just interesting, and i like the idea. so anyway, the parade. was pretty cute. nationalistic ideals and propaganda aside, it was relatively interesting, coz its a new thing to see yes. never knew singaporeans were so enthusiastic. anyway ended up at stadium cove umm shopping again.
think i'm an uncurable shopaholic or something. i seem to like shopping a lot. heh... think i must try to stop now, coz i should be mugging instead of shopping, and really musn't spend so much money on stuff that i would wear once in a while and then end up at the corner of my room. in the first place, i don't have much chance to utilise my stuff since i'm in school most of the time. hmm but did go out quite a bit this weekend. the entire weekend in fact. watched how to deal yesterday. wasn't too bad, for a teen flick, at least there's a decent plot. and mandy moore didn't sing at all, surprisingly. her acting ain't too bad too. sure, the show's kinda unbelievable sometimes coz of the extremity of the incidents but hey, its to get the point across isn't it? that sometimes we just gotta learn how to deal.
in it her character says that she doesn't believe in marriage, because its a lie. people are lying to each other, but are they lying to themselves as well? that is the question. well they definitely are lying to each other, since the marriage vows require one to promise to love and cherish the other person in all adversity, forever. and we all know that is rarely true, isn't it? i do agree. i hardly think much of people telling each other 'i'll love you forever', especially young teens. forever is a long, long time. one of the saddest things people can do to is probably to lie to themselves... then they won't be happy right? i don't know, but seems like lots of people lie to themselves... and don't know it. i think i often do it as well, but choose not to acknowledge it.
why do we even bother anyway? why do we live life if its so painful to live? is there really no love? the answers are always the same... there's a balance of both. you can't really experience happiness without knowing what sadness is, because one cannot exist without the other. how can one know what freedom is if they've never seen it before, or never had captivity to compare it with? diametrically opposed entities... actually there's just a fine line between them isn't there? and i guess people just take things for granted too. well i'm getting quite out of point here... i seem to have no point. i guess there is no point in the first place. i'm just doing freedom of expression over here, so it probably is quite incoherent. well tough, deal with it.
its hard holding you
loving you, losing you
its sad to be true and be fooled by you
i don't know, i gotta know
should i stay or should i go...
a side note. i feel like bridget jones. putting on weight like nobody's business and being all klutzy. except she gets her guy in the end while i have no idea what is going on still.
:12:27 AM: :sugah~plum
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