i feel like crying
yes whine whine whine whine again why don't i. just feeling this wave of despair come over me as i complete the first few papers of promos. i don't feel as if i'd do very well for promos. perhaps should have studied harder for it. i always tell myself months in advance that i would study for an exam... and then i don't. maybe i think its pointless... or maybe i'm just lazy. but right now i'm falling right back into depression. hard to escape it really, and now that i've gotten away from it, its back to haunt me. i'm reminded of things i'd rather forget or not think about, and this is probably the most wrong and inappropriate time to get depressed. in fact i'm not depressed at all. i just feel... melancholic. i feel like a good long cry. maybe what hurts is that there is no shoulder to cry on. maybe i need a good solid real shoulder to cry on. what am i talking about. i'm delusional right now really i am. or maybe just stressed. worried... econs is in another 14 hours. and i don't really know much about what is going on. i'm lost. confused. or maybe i've just got pms. BAH.
:12:17 AM: :sugah~plum