i think there's something ironic in the way my shiny painted nails are holding a tissue to my nose which refuses to stop bleeding while i sit forlornly waiting for the blood to go away. wanted to remove makeup and shower but the nose stopped all that. i feel kinda terrible. and warning to anyone who cannot stand whining, i am about to do just that, but only for a bit, because i don't think whining is a very good thing to do. but catharsis is needed. i think i'm losing focus... and my growing blueblacks kinda hurt. really am trying to give my all, and listening to the progress of the play except for some breaks while i rest and chat a bit. but still not totally focused. my mind is going to pieces. i'm having trouble finding the point in doing things, and sometimes i just do everything anyway and maybe its too much. i dunno. i suppose i lack dedication and motivation. or justification... committment... what you will. yes i do lack a lot of things. but well... should definitely stop whining.
oh man so sleepy i feel like just flopping into bed like that... but damn, still have to shower and msg people bout line-in stuff. like they'd check their phones that late at night anyway. okay brain really is not here now... nvm. pointless rambling post. need to shower now.
:1:47 AM: :sugah~plum
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