memories.
rather a queer thing, aren't they? some people would opt to erase all the painful memories and keep only the good ones, or long to erase all memories of a particular person or incident. is oblivion really bliss? perhaps for the person in that oblivion. but the people around such a person might feel the pity of it, the loss of experiences that make up a fufilling life, the loss of knowledge and feelings. while the person doesn't feel the loss, because it doesn't even exist. it's probably the same for death, isn't it. the person involved likely doesn't feel anything, while the people around them feel the pain and loss of the particular person. i wonder if we're indeed only truly grieving for ourselves. hm but back to memories. personally i'd like to retain them. the idea of not remembering anything about my life, or being cast into oblivion... just seems so bleak. of course i probably wouldn't be able to feel it if i had no thoughts or memory, but still. i think i prefer to be a fully functional human being with intact memories, painful or not. memories are rather queer. a buried memory from the past can just suddenly pounce up onto you when you're thinking of a completely unrelated subject. could be a nice pleasant memory to brighten up a day, or could be a painful memory to remind one of the bleakness in life. who knows... i guess the unpredictability of life is another thing to like sometimes. zest. the very epitome of life itself? perhaps, perhaps not. ohwell... shall mull no more.
7 weeks to prelims. i'm quite screwed i reckon. the first 4 weeks is mostly all gone due to cca commitments, so i guess that leaves me with 3 weeks. haha rather worried. seems like j2 is flying by so fast, it'll be over pretty damn soon. oh man. life is how short yet we don't make optimum use of it. haha i'm one to talk... i'm wasting my time now. basically just rotting away. egh i think i burned my tongue just now it feels funny egh -_- photohunt is fun. and i think i can't think in straight lines. more like strange squiggly ones. tristam shandy. haha.
:9:13 PM: :sugah~plum
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