memories again.
a shadow of a former glory, the residual smoke when a fire has reached the end of its sparks and glow, the mist of raindrops collected by the air after a rainstorm, last vestiges of anything which had ever happened. possessed by sentinent minds, of humans or of other entities. it is a wondrous thing, a collation of memories would form the montage of a life, everything that has ever meant something or anything. memories can be the conduit through which experiences can be relived and relished, but it can also assault you, leaving you with nothing but intangible thoughts and cold emptiness, wisps of air you are unable to grasp. one can choose to keep a memories as a way of storing the past up, but if not careful, one may end up lost in the past and forget to live in the present. perhaps i speak too much of memories... but they are a subtle presence in my mind, and in many others too if i am not wrong, and at times they remind me of many things, things that will never be the same again. because people change, memories don't. perhaps they fade in time, or morph under the shaping of its posessor, but memories essentially probably do not change. they stay similar, while people change, and one wonders what could have been what might have been and what is not now. wistfulness, regret, loss... i guess memories are often bittersweet, a memory of a nice incident would cause a smile and happiness, but a wistful and bleak state as well at the lack of its current existence, and probably vice versa for a horrible incident. memories are an intergral part of our lives... we simply have to avoid becoming ruled by it.
rather sleepy now. been aching these few days but don't know why, as there has been a lack of exertion anyway. perhaps its the flu. i feel an onset of it coming on. perhaps i should go to sleep early tonight. hm. term exams have been okay-ish, except for math urgh, got about BBCF a2 not including ca marks to pull it even further down. wonder if i should do ITS then hm. might or might not make me busier. ohwell i know i want to, just don't know if its wise. but think i shall. and i think i shall be off to bed soon, i keep falling asleep at the comp though i have temporarily awoken for some reason. i'm tired. and i think when i finally get used to school again i'm going to be absented from it yet again. disorientating. but that is another thing to worry about for another day. to slumber now go i. goodnight.
:11:13 PM: :sugah~plum
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