good mood from a nice holiday still prevailing. haven't particularly felt like doing anything at all these two days except hole up at home and read though... feeling sluggish and faintly anti-social for some reason heh. haha also fairly convinced that orchard will be utterly and completely swarmed with people doing last minute christmas shopping and will be seriously crowded and all. trying to avoid it as much as i can... but don't think its all that possible. haha well it is town after all. but anyway i never really had that problem, didn't start exchanging presents with people til hmm... like 2 years ago? and never really celebrated christmas with friends before too... so not a big issue for me. and i did my shopping in japan this year anyway. haha. not a christian either. but i do think christmas is great though. its one of the more meaningful and enjoyable holidays i think. people are generally happier and peaceful and nice, and holidays are always a good excuse to meet up and catch up and just banish loneliness and be festive. hmm well depends on how one looks at it i guess?
was reading a pretty interesting and rather disturbing psychological thriller these two days in seclusion... and well it did bring up an issue like that. it depends on how people look at it right? a girl who is supposedly insane has the view that crazy people aren't really all that crazy in perspective, just that they have different rationale and motivation for doing things... and that normal people are just too uptight and can't relax. hm. was an interesting book. i think i actually kinda like portrayals of psychos. books like primal fear and later the movie and the one i read today... well they just kinda make insanity look like a complex art. just because someone's crazy doesn't mean he's incoherent or stupid... not always perhaps. at least in those two books. just an idea that they're actually bloody brillant. maybe genius and eccentricity or insanity is not really mutually exclusive after all?
okay i can't continue... pretty hard to keep typing when i keep bouncing up to dance every minute or so. been getting an irrepressible urge to dance recently... i think i have to go buy proper shoes and wear them clubbing one day and dance properly and ditch my heels. but then again a club is not the best place to dance properly... no space. think i should go take lessons... not like i can dance properly in the first place too. but it does feel good to just move to the beat sometimes. ohwell. i think i do a lot of things based on 'feel'. like emotions and mood. i don't think that's entirely wise, but that is kind of how i am. maybe that's why i like dancing, singing and acting so much. there's some inexplicable joy in feeling the music and expressing emotions i guess? i think music is very linked to emotions. literature too... i guess that's why i've always liked music and literature which appeal to the senses and emotions. evocative is usually a criteria i go by. i think that's why i like acting too... to be able to submerge into the life and emotions of a persona makes the feelings more acute and well. allows more intense and a wider of variety of feelings than those experienced in everyday life i guess. i suppose i like to feel. want to feel? yeap.
but i'm only human... don't think i would be if i didn't want to feel, and didn't have emotions, right? and no human being is perfect(damn that's like the metaphysicals ain't it). i also think that not everyone can be entirely secure or happy with themselves. another thing i read in a another book today(i seem to be reading a lot hmm)... that no matter how perfect and happy one's world seems... well you never know. insecurity seems to be an everpresent aspect of everyone's lives. but then again, i can't seem to sense any unhappiness or insecurity in some people. i mean i suppose its there somewhere, but it just never surfaces from the seemingly flawless veneer. rather disturbing. or perhaps such people only show vulnerabilities to a select few and remain perfect to the rest of the world. i think that seems common enough. hmm... wish i could be one of these select few for some people though.
anyway... can someone musically inclined please explain these musical terms to me because my knowledge of technical musical terms is severely limited. Andante, Adagio, Dies Irae, Appassionata, Agnus Dei, and Pavane? i tried searching on google but i mostly got names of art galleries and other weird stuff. thanks and goodbye folks.
:10:39 PM: :sugah~plum
Comments:
Post a Comment