i haven't cried like this in the longest time either. and i don't know whether to be angry or sad. or both. the situation is beyond repair, but i seem to be making things worse now. but i'm also damn stubborn sometimes. but i don't want to argue. and even less do i want to make him unhappy. but i think i am. and that's the worse part of it all. besides having to watch it all crumble and fall apart before my very eyes. maybe i've got a knack for aggravating already bad situations. i hate this. but i know there's nothing much i can do without making things worse again. and i've gone and made his life even more miserable than it was already without me interfering. i'm so frustrated. and it isn't even any of my business, much. i hope i haven't gone and ruined our own situation too. because i can't lose the best thing in my life. damnit damnit damnit. and i hate seeing him so stressed and upset. i hate it. and i don't know what to do about it. except, it seems, make it worse. argh forget it. i'm not making sense. i'm going to hide in one corner and stop thinking. at least i've stopped crying.
:3:22 AM: :sugah~plum
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