i'm actually a little bit angry. not at him, but at the situation they're in. its really an impasse. and its so frustrating because there's absolutely nothing we can do. also reminded me of some other situations... i hate it when some guys do things without thinking. well i know its not like girls don't, but some things really deserve consideration first. i'm sure there are some girls who agree with me, and i know for sure some who would. the chambered muscular organ in vertebrates that pumps blood received from the veins into the arteries is not something which should be toyed with. or treated with light regard. but when its too late... there isn't much point trying to shelter it when its already hurt also right? but then again, i wouldn't know. everyone has different preferences. some people don't want to feel. at all. well i have no idea how that could be possible... or maybe i just feel too much. yeah i think i do... but well i can't help it. too darn ridiculous to be crying when i have no right to though. i shouldn't have. i'm a very lucky girl. and very happy too. but as my dad never fails to tell me, no man is an island. so... yeah. how can anyone just stay in their own sphere untouched and unaffected by the outside world. though i never agree with him when he says it, well because his take on the phrase is different from mine and too extremist for my taste, this time i think its true. but though it affects others... it's personal and doesn't really concern us. not really. umm. i'm starting to not make sense. and my eyes are tired. that's probably not good... oh gosh my blog posts are so boring. haha the content is almost always the same. or something like that o_o anyway quite exasperated also. but at what or who i shall not say. because i exasperated, angry or upset at anything also no use. won't help anything. so i shall not be. ta-da.
and mosquitoes these days are getting more and more perverted... one just kissed me on the lips when i was sleeping or something. now my lip looks strange. and its itchy. boggle. i'm a mosquito magnet i swear. yah. why am i so troublesome? a short term fever, lip get bitten by mosquito, ulcer appear from nowhere, ear pain, earlobe infected and peeling, legs and arm ache, and legs are so terribly terribly ugly from all the mosquito bite scars and scratching rashes and bruises, and now my eyes hurt too? urrrrgh. mutter. yah. my legs are ugly sigh. why do i still persist in wearing those nice short flouncy skirts... blah. well at least he's not scared off by all these yet and still wants to take care of me... i think. in any case, i do treasure him. and happy that he's still sticking around. and like i said to him today, i think he's the first person who has so much faith in me and who wants me to be a better person for myself. and for him too i guess. well except my parents i suppose, but then they never show it and never tell me, so i don't know. but i know he does. so i'm happy. i just wish i wouldn't get a headache every time i stand up though. but well you can't have everything... and i certainly have everything, or in this case someone, i need.
:11:08 PM: :sugah~plum
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