i'm a happy happy girl. just finished my new blog design after the entire day(and night) of photoshop editing and html... swimming in html codes and photoshop now haha. eyes got rather bad today though, think i had conjunctivitis or -something- gee. shall stop rubbing my eyes! anyways... nice nice? its BRIGHT and cheery mwahahaha bright colours are GOOD! :) okays shall post properly now haha... been meaning to post up a song all day. really like it... the tune is like so wistful and regretful, and melodic too, and the lyrics are rather thought-provoking as well.
I've Never Been To Me - Charlene
Hey lady, you lady, cursing at your life
you're a discontented mother, and a regimented wife
I have no doubt you dream about the things you never do
but I wish someone had talked to me like I wanna talk to you
Oh, I've been to Georgia and California and anywhere I could run
Took the hand of a preacher man and we made love in the sun
But I ran out of places and friendly faces
Because I had to be free
I've been to paradise but I've never been to me...
Please lady, please lady, don't just walk away
Cause I have this need to tell you why I'm all alone today
I can see so much of me still living in your eyes
Won't you share a part of a weary heart that has lived a million lives
Oh, I've been to Nice and the isle of Greece
when I sipped champagne on a yacht
I moved like Harlow in Monte Carlo and showed them what I've got
I've been undressed by kings
And I've seen some things that a woman ain't s'pose to see
I've been to paradise but I've never been to me...
Hey, you know what paradise is? It's a lie,
a fantasy we created about people and places as we like them to be
But you know what truth is? It's that little baby you're holding
and it's that man you fought with this morning
the same one you are gonna make love to tonight
That's truth, that's love
Sometimes I've been to crying for unborn children
that might have made me complete
But I, I took the sweet life I never knew I'd be bitter from the sweet
I spent my life exploring the subtle whoring
that costs too much to be free
Hey lady I've been to paradise but I've never been to me...
I've been to paradise but I've never been to me...
........
but the question(or questions), is, which is better, exploring and living life to the fullest and trying, experiencing everything, yet never truly having a home or a strong stalbe relationship and ending up alone, or to be safe and secure in a place and with people you know, not venturing out of your comfort zone and sometimes restricted by certain things or social norms, but yet finding happiness in the simple or normal things in life like the song said, the woman's baby and husband? and why can't we have both? must we really choose? maybe that's what i don't get. and if anyone asked me to choose one, i don't think i could. because i've probably not been to 'me' either. and i don't think i really need to choose yet anyway, my life is only just starting. and i'm happy now. just worried that i may have to choose someday... but oh well we'll see when that comes. i've always seen myself as wanting a bit of both(not all la i'm not -that- greedy =p) simply because i've a rather mixed personality as well. a bit of everything.
haha anyways i've gotta go sleep now its really late hmm... hope you all like my new layout! hee hee.
:4:12 AM: :sugah~plum
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