i think chiew was right. i guess i do need some time by myself to think.
it still hurts rather badly. was refraining from crying when i read his messages at dinner just now. we used to be great... back before all the trouble started. i reckon it started when all the school stuff started. matriculation, orientation camp, briefings etc. i guess with the onset of all these new things... it couldn't have been the same anyway.
but i suddenly had a moment of deeply missing him today.
guess i'm not totally over it yet. but i really should stop obsessing over all this. and just get on with my life. i have tons of work to do ugh. and other stuff too.
painfully managed to delete 8 messages just now. about 70 more to go. will only allow myself to keep a few in the end. slowly i guess.
one more thing i realised. well two. i'm a bit dependent. and i think that it is like. just that its probably not such a good time now. hopefully later.
... i know that i'll never see him again,
but we shared a moment that will last til the end
you're beautiful, you're beautiful it's true
but it's time to face the truth, i will never be with you ...
:9:48 PM: :sugah~plum
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