Things seem to be looking down these few days. I have no idea why, but school seems a lot more work than it's supposed to be. There are so many things to do. Taking a break from FA... though not sure I can finish it in time. Life has suddenly taken a slightly more complicated turn for the worse, and I know very well that I am not well equipped to make the right or least horrible decisions, but I try. But there are some things I'm not willing to give up in the pursuit of the best decisions for everyone. I think I'm so terribly foolish these days; or maybe I'm making up for lost time and stuff, that I'm a bit more open and wild in just having fun and letting loose now. But then again, it's in a very different way from before. Before was just stupid, now, slightly foolish. But then again I think I'll always be a little blur and silly and foolish, in a way. Although perhaps a little foolishness in our lives could be good.
So very tired now... at least I had fun last night, with a raunchy, loud and funny bunch, of whom I only knew a few. Seem to be clubbing quite a bit with strangers and semi-strangers these days, no idea why. But then again, I must say it's rather fun; and less inhibiting, but not that clubbing with friends isn't fun too but well, it's different. Feel like a total bitch these days too... and becoming rather cranky. Don't know what's gotten into me... I think I'm not as nice as I used to be anymore. But then again, maybe tiredness and school and age does that to people. I don't know, perhaps. Or maybe it's just me.
Sometimes there are only two paths to take, and you have to be careful which to take. Sometimes... you don't get to choose the path, or some strange twist of fate brings an otherwise unlikely choice of paths to you. I'm so tired; I just feel like finding a bench, sitting down on it, and refuse to budge until I have a good reason to. Sigh.
And where is the shoe uncle :(
:1:08 PM: :sugah~plum
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