I'm a little sad, and confused right now. I think, I'm making things difficult, and I'm making it all worse. And now, the trouble is, I'm starting to think its because I just need someone to be there, too badly. And it's not fair to demand that from anyone. Perhaps I'm the one who's going to end up alone in the end; because no one would want or even can, give me the kind of devotion or love I can and want to give. And perhaps this is pure selfishness, but I won't always be happy being the only one who wants to give, for long. I don't expect, I never do, I just sit silently and wait, and hope, as always. But hoping gets old, fast - I suppose I was never very patient. But then again, no, I have been. When I wasn't given false hopes or... well, when there are no other complications. That one particular thing, always messes me all up. I'm... not really sure what I mean already, actually. And I fell asleep so hmm... everything seems alright again.
But really, I think all I needed was just a little comforting and reassuring, as usual. But I guess, even that's hard to get; especially from the people you want it from.
:3:19 AM: :sugah~plum
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