I need some perspective.
I really need to think about what I say before I say it, because it's really starting to get out of hand. I never really thought of myself as being bad at expressing myself, but when I think hard about it, I think I actually am - due to bad phrasing and the use of convoluted ways and superfluous words to get to the point.
Like the difference between steaming and boiling. I do know the difference. But while I meant to say that it's the same to me because food cooked by either method has a similar, water soaked, non-oily/greasy taste, it somehow came out wrong, and was taken to mean that I didn't know the difference between steaming and boiling.
I think some perceptions of people, once identified and assumed, never really change unless you do something drastic to prove it wrong. Unfortunately, I just don't think before I say or do certain things, and well, that is the truth. I'm just tired of being viewed in a certain way. And I'm tired of this place, and life here.
But okay, I have a holiday coming up in... 3 weeks or so. Hopefully, it'll be a good breather. Recently I've been thinking about the future, and how school and work is so vastly different and how in a year's time I'd really have to work for real. Students are such a sheltered lot, we are. Internships let us brush the surface of what working is like, but we only do it for a couple of months - for the rest of the world, it's their life. It's time to grow up. But maybe wait til after exchange.
And a random observation - a good number of my friends have turned into canoodling couples, which result in me inevitably catching a glimpse of people giving love-soaked glances, kisses, and hugs wherever I look. Don't get me wrong, I'm terribly happy for all of them. It's just so very.... third wheel cat. But fine, whatever, deal with it. It's getting sliiiightly annoying though, because well, because. And also because the demographics of friendships are all somewhat different now. Maybe it's a student thing - all of them are still studying.
So sleepy. The early morning and late nights are starting to take a toll.
:8:34 AM: :sugah~plum
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