Oh, to be an adult.
I've basically spent the last few days thinking really hard about what I want to do with my life. As I'm currently interning/on trial at a marketing consultancy firm, it really hit me when the boss asked me whether I want to take it on full-time or not - what do I want to do with my life?
Do I want to work in a job where the hours are good, the pay is not too bad, the boss is great, but the work, so-so kinda boring and not very fulfilling; or a job where it's constantly challenging and exciting which you love doing, but with long hours and low pay? It's a constant struggle to decide what is best.
And then there's the need for budgeting, managing your own finances and insurance payments etc etc once you start drawing an income. And of course, the drudgery of everyday life that is work.
Growing up has never looked so bleak.
But on the bright side, at least I won't be so broke any longer, hopefully.
:8:37 PM: :sugah~plum
I <3 Ikea!
It's full of fun and exciting things which I want to buy and put in my house - the element of DIY and self-design is always thrilling to me. And of course, there are the meatballs!
Nomnomnomnomnom.
And apparently I look delicious too, to this cute little fella here :P
Also, our dear Miss Lee (no longer) just got married last Saturday! Miss Lee was our fantastic bio teacher in secondary school who had to tolerate all our random antics, especially in the bio lab where people tried to eat the vegetables meant for the experiments or start to boil potato and carrot soup with the bunsen burner... and etc...
And so our classes were there to give her our blessings :)
Well okay, about umm 1/4 or 1/3 of us, anyway....! The rest of you - WHY NEVER COME! Haha ohwell it was great to catch up with everyone as well... :)
Anyway, tomorrow is my very last day of freedom before I sell my soul to the corporate world as a lowly paid intern. Wonder how I should spend it!
:8:28 PM: :sugah~plum
Waking up crying from a vividly painful and realistic dream is really not something you want to do at 4.30am in the morning, trust me.
:5:02 AM: :sugah~plum
Wow.
I'm amazed - happened to look at the sidebar of my blog and realised that I've been blogging for almost 7 years already. And then I went to look at some of my old entries and was even MORE amazed - my blog actually used to be somewhat entertaining/interesting! No wonder people used to read it.
I wonder what happened; did I get boring, or did I just... grow up?
:3:00 AM: :sugah~plum
I often wonder how two people with ridiculously different personalities could have gotten together and had children. I wonder if it's due to the difference in generation, where the values are different and the institution of marriage and family is valued over the self. Unfortunately as society progresses there is an emergence of the self, which realizes that they have given up this very thing for other values, but sometimes, after ensconcing in a certain lifestyle, it is seemingly too late to discover it again.
I find that very sad. And have tried to come up with suggestions to deal with it. But it falls on deaf ears and requited with torrents of bitter, repetitive comments.
Why are people never content with their lives? And if they are not content, why do they not do something about it? Is it truly human nature to just whine and moan about their lives and how it is simply so terrible? I'm guilty of that, sometimes, but really, people need to be more self-aware. Sometimes it's fate, but most of the time you are in control of your own destiny and people sometimes don't see that.
But evidently my values are far different. I believe in compromise however, but unfortunately I don't think it's enough for some people. Perhaps there is a way to solve this unhappiness, like in the movies, but for now the solution has yet to come to me. Stick them into a broken down lift? Tell one the other said something and the other that the other one said something?
Unfortunately I'm not a maestro at orchestrating such matters.
Sigh. I think in part, there's significant fault of mine, but like I said, there is a clash of values and the only way is to compromise - which is not enough for some people.
I'm at a loss, and just feeling upset and guilty and tired about it now. One thing I'm sure of though - is that I can't let it happen to me.
:9:57 AM: :sugah~plum
Twirl, twirl, twirl.
So it's been great, the bumming and enjoying life. The view is great.
And in other news, I finally bought the pair of shoes which I have been coveting and kept thinking about for the past 2 weeks - I am content now, in shoe paradise. Who knows when a new love will appear, but for now, I am happy.
Went to watch SRT's Much Ado About Nothing starring Adrian Pang on the opening night, 7th May, at Fort Canning Park. Was quite an experience - first time I picnic-ed at a park and watched a play in open air. Very pleasant indeed! Despite the weather here being a little warm, when there is a cool night breeze or if you bring your own fan, it's pretty alright, really.
Celebrated the birthdays of Sam and Robin on Friday! Was fun and hope they had fun - they're great people who deserve to! Had a nice cosy dinner and drinks :)
And Sharon was in town for the weekend too - so the whole bunch of us went down to Union Square on Friday and Saturday night and danced til our feet were sore. Had supper at Newton into the wee hours of the night with everyone - just like old times, with lots of laughter and great food. Good times, good times.
So... it was a pretty eventful week. I start interning next week though so no more gallivanting around and having fun! :( Well... less, at least. I'm so broke it's not funny though, so working is a good idea now, really!
:1:02 PM: :sugah~plum
GV cheats my feelings!
Ok when it happened I posted it on Facebook, Plurk and Twitter. But here's the full story why and how it cheated my feelings lol.
So what happened was that I was watching X-Men Origins: Wolverine (which I thought was really good btw, better than the X-Men series. But then again I'm an X-Men fan and just super excited to see the fight scenes and powers unleashed and all, so hmm take that into account) at GV Plaza, and they fricking cut off the movie just as Wolvering was saying his last word (in the scene after the credits)! Okay people I know it's the last word and we really don't need to see anymore, but like c'mon, if you cut if off midway during the last word, what if it's another word and not the word we think it to be? For this movie it's pretty obvious what the word is, but that's not the point! It's a matter of principle! You're providing a service - which is screening a movie to audiences who have paid money to watch the movie in ITS ENTIRETY.
To cut it off abruptly while he was talking just totally irritated the hell out of me. Even though I could guess that it was probably more or less over, it kinda spoiled the ending to a good movie and totally killed the mood and happy feeling it could have left me with. And evidently the rest of the people watching that movie weren't very happy as well - there were at least 20 odd people going 'HEY! What the hell?!!' and glaring at the projection people up there.
What happened eventually was that the GV staff let the disgruntled 20 odd people shuffle into another theatre which was playing the movie to watch the last 10 minutes of it to wait for the ending to see it properly and get closure. Although I do admit this was quite interesting - I got to see how the other audience reacted at certain scenes - exactly the same as us! - it was a potential waste of time (if you're very busy) just because of some stupid projection person who probably thought, oh hell it's almost over let's just cut it anyway. Which is very annoying.
Granted I can believe that it was accidental and a blip in GV's excellent track record or whatever, but still. ANNOYING.
Ok fine maybe I'm just being petty. Hurhur.
:9:28 PM: :sugah~plum