GRADUATION, baby.
So I officially graduated yesterday... yay/oh no! Somehow I have mixed feelings about this - on one hand, I'm happy that I've graduated from university, with fairly decent (sadly not good enough for me though) grades; and on the other, I'm kinda sad that this chapter of my life is over and that I have to go out into the real world now. But I suppose quite a number of people feel this way too, perhaps.
It's been a hectic, hectic weekend. Grad night, commencement, performing at the YMCA salsa night, various personal dramas and contact lens/puffy eye sagas - I think they have really sapped all my energy away. Plus I need to clear out my wardrobe today because the people are coming to demolish/remove it tomorrow. New (bigger and much needed) one coming in! What a weekend. Took quite a lot of photos (but not as many as I usually do, lol) and will post on Facebook soon! It's a bit sian though coz like I don't understand why some people compose pictures so strangely - taking just the heads and having a lot of blank space above?! So some of my pictures with people are a bit... strange. Well will try to crop! Sad though, a lot of my pictures from commencement are blur... =(
Okay so I'll leave you with a picture of me and my two favourite girls, all dressed up for our grad night at the Fullerton Hotel. <3!
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And in a side note, I'm really amazed how gifts from my or my sister's friends to my mum can go SUCH a long way in pleasing her. But I suppose those gifts had reason and were well chosen hahaha; whether by a stroke of sheer luck or random guessing! Boys, take note - I suspect this works with most mums, lol!
Toodles.
:3:20 PM: :sugah~plum
If until now...
It's not happening, it's never going to happen.
I gave myself a personal deadline, a while ago, but I wasn't sure I would be able to meet it. Somehow I think I did, with some unexpected help, but then again, we'll see how it goes this time.
I can't be with someone who only loves me and wants to see me when he feels like it, and who can't wrap his mind around being in a relationship with me. I can't. Maybe I'm selfish, but I'd like to have something real. And if until now, he's still unsure about me... well... I'm tired of waiting.
It hurts so bad, it really does.
:1:27 PM: :sugah~plum
The boring life of Mlle Teo Shu Zhem (as it says on my French bank card).
And so I went to the gym today! Ran/walked a pathetic 3.5km in slightly under 30 mins - I swear I'm not getting any fitter really. But going more than once a week really is a PAIN. I'm a naturally slothful person, so once per week is really quite enough, really. It's a start!
Hurhur though I think having curry and rice for lunch AND dinner has probably completely nullified, if not damaged, this effect.
Also had a RATHER amusing occurrence during lunch, hahaha. It's a bit hard to explain.
Managed to catch up on some Bleach over the weekend as well - its SO EXCITING, watching the pendulum swing back!!! Stoked.
Today, spent a good part of the day trying to solve a problem for a client who created it themselves, and was quite close to pulling my hair out.
Though, am rather sad that I'll be leaving this company on Friday - the pluses outweighed the minuses - it had nice people, great hours (10-6plus, impossible to beat, I think), great location (could meet various friends for lunch), and a not too difficult job! Sadly, it's not quite related to what I'd want to do in life, so it won't quite contribute to career progression or whatever... so... I have to pass this opportunity up. I think I'm being picky and all, but I think people tend to do that for their first.... anythings.
Oh dear. I'm so sleepy. I think I might ache tomorrow - it's been a while! Zzz.
:10:29 PM: :sugah~plum
I don't understand myself sometimes. I want excitement, yet I want stability and peace. I want to work hard on projects and achieve excellent results, and I also want to slack. I want company, and I want to be alone. And... you get the point.
Just feeling a little... frustrated at why my life can't be simpler. Somehow I always get into complicated human relationships without meaning to. And I guess I'm the kind of person who doesn't choose a side and always tries to sit on the fence/have my cake and eat it too (although this saying doesn't really make sense to me), which I think doesn't really help. In any case... perhaps I'm meant to always be embroiled and unsettled. Perhaps. It's not really what I want, but I'm really not sure about what I do want, so... we'll see.
And I'm too sentimental for my own good too.
Oh well.
:9:03 AM: :sugah~plum
Busy busy bee!
Barcardi Original Mojito Salsa Extravaganza!
Check out my cupcake :)Yikes. Haven't blogged for a week and a half. Been meaning to, but somehow just hadn't had the time. Recently I've been baking! And dancing, of course. And yeah... working kind of saps away a lot of your time. Will likely be jobless or as people say, "in-between jobs" soon, so perhaps I will have more time. Hah.
And and. I had a recent spate of bad luck last week - first I spilt half my bowl of curry on my pants, shoes, and the floor, AND my whole cup of barley into my food tray, and THEN the next day I slip and fall and get a big scab thing on my knee. Tsk. Or perhaps I am just clumsy -_- it's not usually this bad though!
Lychee martini <3
Smoked salmon salad nomnomnom.Oh and had a great (complimentary) dinner at Supperclub last Wednesday too - it was like a promotional thing sponsored by Divine Med Spa. Quite a smart marketing gimmick, if only to gain brand awareness. At least it's targeted (ladyluxe night), lol! Camera died though so few pictures. But it was nice and pleasant - having an after work drink with a delicious 4 course meal. Good stuff.
And more free food - went for a media food tasting event at Chinese Box organized by my company and helped to take pictures. Full review here at Ingredients of Happiness! :)
Also had high tea at the Fullerton with my girls - more on that in the next post. Been spending waayyyy too much (mostly on food, I think, because I haven't really been shopping :() so got to start cutting down now! Do want to buy a dress for grad night though =(
On a final note, Dalena, Daphne and I are holding a flea market stall at Timbre @ The Arts House tomorrow evening from 6.30pm to 11.30pm - do drop by and support if you can make it! :D
:6:31 PM: :sugah~plum
What is WRONG with prawn mee?!
My parents are strange... the conversation goes like this -
The rents: Do you want us to ta-pow chicken wings for you for dinner?
(notice how I'm not asked my opinion on what food I want)
Me: Er, don't want. I want prawn mee please.
R: Why prawn mee?? How about chicken wings?
Me: No, I want prawn mee.
R: But I thought you're full! How about chicken wings? Or popiah lah??
Me: No, I want prawn mee. I want to drink the soup and it's healthier than chicken wings anyway...
R: Prawn mee the soup not healthy, don't get prawn mee, chicken wings or popiah better? And if you're not going to eat the noodles, wasted!!!
Me: Just ask for less noodles lah I'll eat some what...
R: I thought you said you're full... prawn mee very filling leh... how about popiah?
(..... and this goes on for about 2 minutes)
Me: (by now very exasperated) Why I cannot eat prawn mee is it WHAT'S WRONG with it?!! Just buy prawn mee ok!!!
R: Oh. Ok.
All that effort just to get a bowl of prawn mee.... omg. I don't know whether to laugh or cry!
:8:19 PM: :sugah~plum
People.
It's something which has occured to me on a number of occasions.
The core of what our world is, is people. Corporations, businesses, governments, societies, EVERYTHING, were created by people, managed by people, and made up of people. Without people none of these things can exist. And sometimes, that is why I marvel human life, and marvel the complexities of it.
There's a school of thought which postulates that the world, or specifically, Earth, will be better off without human beings. Nature will thrive, plants will grow, and there won't be a hole in the sky (yes, I know, in the ozone layer, but sky sounded more poetic). And in truth, there is beauty and many nuances in nature, and yes, perhaps the world will be better off.
But there is much beauty in human life as well. Even the not-so-wonderful specimens, well, they make life interesting, let's just say.
There's a circle of society - of people working to create things, which they in turn sell to people and earn the money to buy other things which were created by other people. That's something which is pretty fascinating to me, even though I can't quite explain why.
Anyway, I'm not going to attempt to answer the perennial question of whether we need society or if its really just a cage and a pretense of civilization, but I do think, that social exchange networks help to preserve some form of order, and help people to achieve some material level of happiness.
I'm going to stop here, because I think if I go on I'll be confusing myself with my own thoughts. And plus it's almost 7pm on a Friday night - it's time for some dinner and some dancing!
:6:48 PM: :sugah~plum
Dreams.
For some reason, I've been having recurring dreams with similar motifs, which all play on a particular real life trouble and frustration. I wonder if my sub-conscious is trying to tell me something, but I really don't know what it's trying to say. In any case, it's too vivid and too real for my liking - can't even get some peace while sleeping, bah.
Anyway, here's the trailer for L4D2 - all I can say is, frying pans, lol.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jz6FCFoL3k4
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The interviews are about to begin... wish me luck!
:2:58 PM: :sugah~plum
Oh, to be an adult.
I've basically spent the last few days thinking really hard about what I want to do with my life. As I'm currently interning/on trial at a marketing consultancy firm, it really hit me when the boss asked me whether I want to take it on full-time or not - what do I want to do with my life?
Do I want to work in a job where the hours are good, the pay is not too bad, the boss is great, but the work, so-so kinda boring and not very fulfilling; or a job where it's constantly challenging and exciting which you love doing, but with long hours and low pay? It's a constant struggle to decide what is best.
And then there's the need for budgeting, managing your own finances and insurance payments etc etc once you start drawing an income. And of course, the drudgery of everyday life that is work.
Growing up has never looked so bleak.
But on the bright side, at least I won't be so broke any longer, hopefully.
:8:37 PM: :sugah~plum
I <3 Ikea!
It's full of fun and exciting things which I want to buy and put in my house - the element of DIY and self-design is always thrilling to me. And of course, there are the meatballs!
Nomnomnomnomnom.
And apparently I look delicious too, to this cute little fella here :P
Also, our dear Miss Lee (no longer) just got married last Saturday! Miss Lee was our fantastic bio teacher in secondary school who had to tolerate all our random antics, especially in the bio lab where people tried to eat the vegetables meant for the experiments or start to boil potato and carrot soup with the bunsen burner... and etc...
And so our classes were there to give her our blessings :)
Well okay, about umm 1/4 or 1/3 of us, anyway....! The rest of you - WHY NEVER COME! Haha ohwell it was great to catch up with everyone as well... :)
Anyway, tomorrow is my very last day of freedom before I sell my soul to the corporate world as a lowly paid intern. Wonder how I should spend it!
:8:28 PM: :sugah~plum
Waking up crying from a vividly painful and realistic dream is really not something you want to do at 4.30am in the morning, trust me.
:5:02 AM: :sugah~plum
Wow.
I'm amazed - happened to look at the sidebar of my blog and realised that I've been blogging for almost 7 years already. And then I went to look at some of my old entries and was even MORE amazed - my blog actually used to be somewhat entertaining/interesting! No wonder people used to read it.
I wonder what happened; did I get boring, or did I just... grow up?
:3:00 AM: :sugah~plum